True Colors (Sequel to Colorful) [Adopted by Emblem3]

Chapter 17: Darling you'll be okay

Song of the Chapter: Hold on till May by Pierce the Veil

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Ryder's POV:

"How long has it been?" Tyler asked, rubbing circles into my back as we lied on the couch.

"Since what?"

"Since you know...you, uh...self injured" He said awkwardly, like he didn't want to use a word that would hurt me.

"Two months." I said plainly. I knew I could do better.

"I'm so proud of you." He said kissing my temple.

I smiled and stood up.

"I'm gonna go across the street and get an Arizona tea, you want anything?" I asked.

"Nah, I'm gonna get a quick shower though." With that, I stole a five from Drew's room and headed out the door.

I jogged across the semi-busy street, over to the small convenient store.

I walked down the isle where the drinks were and grabbed myself an Arizona green tea.

God, these things are practically heaven in a can.

I heard a snicker come from behind me, causing me to turn on my heels, two girls standing behind me.

"Whore." I heard one say in a fake cough.

"Fuck off." I said nonchalantly.

"I just called you a whore, aren't you gonna cry?" She tried out-sassing me. Hell naw. Not in my house, son.

I walked to the counter as I handed the cashier the bill.

"Keep the change." I said, not wanting to be any where within a ten foot radius of them.

I jogged across the street again and up to the condo.

Was I really as weak as they thought I was?

I am. I cry a lot. I break too easily.

Tyler was still in the shower, and no sign of the guys or Kelsey.

I shut the door to my room, grabbing the newly bought razor off the bed-side table.

Do I really want to do this?

Do I really want to throw two months down the drain?

But, another voice inside my head told me yes.

I chose to listen to it.

I drug the blades deep into my wrist.

One cut.

Two cut.

Three cut.

Why do I have to do this?

Am I really that broken, that when two people call me a whore and weak, I cut myself?

"Ryder!" Tyler yelled, tackling back onto the bed, grabbing the razor throwing it behind him, busting it off the wall.

"Please. Never ever, do that again." He cried holding me as I cried even harder. "You're just thinking about the past."

"I can't take this anymore."

I heard the rain begin beating down, hitting the window, thunder sounding and lightning being the only source of light in the now dark room.

"You'll be okay. I promise." He whispered.

I screamed in agony as the cuts started burning.

"Let's get you cleaned up." He said, carrying me into the bathroom bridal style.

He sat me onto the counter as he cleaned up my wrist.

"This is not what it is, only baby scars." He said, kissing the now-scabbing cuts.

A few tears slid down my cheeks as he looked back up at me and kissed me.

"You are the most beautiful person that I have ever met." He said, taking his thumb, wiping away the few tears.

"If you were me, you'd do the same." I said

"No I wouldn't. I would never destroy such a beautiful body." He said, taking my hands in his.

"Why not? I'm such a horrible person." I said, barely above a whisper.

"No you are not. Whoever made you do this is a horrible person." He smiled. "Now, how about I go get your tea and we can cuddle and watch a movie."

"Sounds lovely." I smiled back.

A real smile.

I walked into the living room and wrapped up in a blanket and turning out the light.

I watched as the rain poured onto the terrace.

The lightning lit up the room just as Tyler sat down and turned on Spanglish.

He handed me my tea as this horrible night came to a perfect end.

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