When I Escaped

Chapter 1

There are instances in my life wherein I tend to escape. Nababaliw na kasi ako dito sa mundo . Wala na ba ibang Earth? Gustong gusto ko nang makaalis sa lahat.

There are many ways to escape from everything but I was thinking, there is only one way to escape Life~

"Miss Brooke, Hindi ka na naman
nakikinig sa klase. Can you share with us what are your thoughts about our lesson?"

Shit. I muttered

"I am sorry sir, I-I just did not sleep well last night" mahina kong sinabi.

Hay nako, ako na naman yung nakita nung bakla kong propesor.

Since I was a freshmen here at East Shore Academy, si Professor Drew ang naging psychology teacher ko. And I easily get bored in class dahil lahat nung sinasabi niya nagcocontradict sa iniisip ko.Now that I'm a senior, 6 more months till 'goodbye boredom'.

I kept on listening.

"Suicide is never an option. It never helps you stop the pain, it will just continue to hurt everyone who loves you"

My thoughts seem to bother me.

But what if it's the only option?What if it is the only way to stop the pain. No one cares, no one loves me, I'm useless

Sa lahat ng nangyari for the past years, pakiramdam ko wala na akong silbi pa dito sa mundo.

"If you're having a hard time, my office is always open". He said it addressing to everyone but he eyed me warily.

I crossed my arms in my desk and bury my face in it. I am so exhausted with life, with me, everything.

The bell rang

Umupo ako sa cafeteria and I was alone. Pinikit ko yung mga mata ko. Hindi ko kasi alam kung ang mga nangyayari ay totoo...

I can tell that it's killing me. I think this is it, mamamatay na ako. Para kasing yung brain ko sasabog na.

I was beginning to cry when someone sat beside me.

"This seat is taken". I glared at him.

He eyed me. Yung mga mata niya ay parang kaleidoscope- it's green but with a mixture of blue.

"Taken by whom? I noticed you never had friends since you got here." he said

"Kung guguluhin mo lang ako Travis Romero, get out of here wala ka namang makukuha sakin and I'm not one of your puppets to toy with"

Travis is a senior like me. Hindi ko pa siya nakita ganito kalapit.

Okay naman, parang tao rin yung mukha niya.

He's the captain of the football team. Maraming nagsasabi parang siya daw si superman dahil sa katawan niya.

At base sa nakikita ko hindi talaga, para siyang bakulaw na hindi pa nakakain.

Syempre kapag captain ka, lahat ng babae nababaliw sayo.

But not me, talagang hindi ako yung tipo ng tao na magkakagusto sa bakulaw.

Nginitian lang ako ng demonyo. Nakakainis.
"I just wanted to be a friend. You're Julie, right?"

Friend.

Friend.

Friend.

Aba aba, teka lang. Si Travis makikipag friends?

To be honest, I feel elated to hear that. And I wanted to be someone's friend.
I longed the feeling of having a friend. But not to Travis Romero.

I stared at him blankly. Sino ba yung niloloko niya. Ha! Wag ako bakulaw.

Ano na naman ba tong laro ni Travis. Hay nako. During sophomore year Travis and his friends bullied me because lagi daw ako sumusuot ng itim na damit and I look like I'm attending a funeral. Junior year, one of Travis's friend Connor, tried to harass me and what? All he did was laugh and now he's trying to be friends with me?

Baliw. Baka lumalaki na yung tumor niya sa utak.

He bit his lip. "Well, see you in class Julie."

Part of me wanted to strangle him to death but what if, what if he really wanted to be frien--

Bullshit.

My thoughts are bothering me again, I remembered my dad being my one and only friend. He never fails to make me happy when I'm hurt. He played dolls with me when I was young, since hindi ako marunong makipag friends sa iba.

My dad was killed in an accident, that's what the only thing my mom told me and she never talked to me about him again. Nung wala na si Dad, I can barely keep up with my feelings. It feels like its draining, the happiness, joy and laughter turned into loneliness and hatred.

I miss him so much.

Sometimes I wonder why great people are brought into your life, and then taken away.

I was crying, literally crying
I ran outside the school, so fast that I could hear my heartbeat pounding.

I didn't even finish my food, burger at fries pa naman yung pagkain.

The world is spinning, my head hurts so bad and my feet is wobbling.

The last time I ran this hard is when I knew that my mom and dad is having a divorce. I was 10 years old back then and I ran away from home. That feeling is still here with me, every single pain I felt that night was unbearable. And now I'm feeling it again.

And it hurt so much that I couldn't feel the pain anymore.

Malapit na ako sa bahay pero namalayan ko na hindi ako makahinga. Suddenly, my whole system betrayed me.

"C'mon just one more-"
then everything went black.