An Unknown Love

Baby Steps Make Things Better

"So he said I love you, and you ran away?" Scott stared at me unbelieving as he sat up, leaving me alone sprawled on the couch. "Kirstie if I could switch places with you and have Mitch back loving me, I would do it in a heartbeat, even if it meant you and Avi broke up! Appreciate what you have! Don't you love him?" His voice had increasingly gotten louder, ending with him near yelling. 

"I don't know maybe?" I was confused. "The last guy to tell me he loved me turned out to be a low-life dirtbag." Scott turned to me, his face etched with worry.

"Wait, that's why you freaked? Because of Sam?" He said quietly. "I thought we had all gone past that."

"I thought I did, and I am happy with Avi, and I have moved on. But when he said he loved me it dredged up a whole lot of bad memories." I hung my head, ashamed that something from over a year and a half ago still bothered me like this. I got up, and started pacing around his living room. "I am 99.9% sure that I love Avi; I don't get why I couldn't say it back!" I turned back towards Scott, saying," I need to talk to him before rehearsal." Scott's face paled at the mention of seeing Mitch again. "Everything will be fine Scott, but I think you guys need to move past your differences so we can still be a successful group." He nodded. 

"You should go, talk to Avi right now!" I knew he was right. I grabbed my keys and ran to my car. When I got in, I saw the letter Mitch had left us, and I knew that it was more important. I opened it to read,

Kirstie and Avi, 

Thank you for letting me stay at your place this past month. I will be forever grateful of that. I am struggling with the thought of seeing Scott today, so I might not make it to rehearsal. Please don't call or text me. I might answer. 

Love Mitch

I finished reading and automatically thought, Oh no way I'm not calling him. I picked up my phone and dialed his number. It rang a couple times and I almost hung up when I heard him say faintly

"Hey. Why did you call me, didn't you read my letter?"

"Yeah that's why I called you."

"Oh"

"Where are you, let's talk."

"Well, I'm at the studio."

"See you in ten!"

True to my word, ten minutes later I walked into our studio. The recording room was occupied by my heartbroken best friend. I heard him singing, Wise men say, only fools rush in. But I can't help, falling in love with you. His soulful voice filled the room, swelling and falling with the tune. I knocked slightly before walking. 

"So, still singing about him?" I startled Mitch who turned around with red eyes.

"I still love him. He cheated on me, with my ex, yet I still love him. Screw that, I'm in love with him! And I know that I'm probably dumb for thinking that, and that my view of love must be really screwed up to still love someone who betrayed my trust, but I can't help it. Everything about him, his eyes, his smile, the way he is so caring and protective. Even when he is mad at me I still think he is the most amazing person in the world. I am completely miserable without him."

I stared at Mitch for a couple of seconds, processing what I had just heard. "So, would you get back with Scott?" I asked in a hushed voice.

Mitch looked at me for a moment before turning away. "I don't know. I need to fully trust him again, and I can't do that right away. But I can definitely be friends with him again, if he wants."

Right as he finished speaking, a voice interrupted my thoughts. "Of course I freaking do, I still love you!" Mitch and I both jumped out of our skin, having not noticed that Scott was standing in the doorway. He took a few steps forward before stopping himself. He was reserving his feelings, I realized. Smiling to myself, I switched places with Scott and backed out of the room, hearing their indistinct conversation fade away completely.

I really needed to go talk to Avi. I headed back out to my car and drove home.

A few minutes later I walked into my living room, greeted by Olaf's wagging tail. "Ready boy? Do you want it? Okay go get it!" I chuckled as Olaf sprinted past Avi into the kitchen to go fetch the beat up tennis ball. Avi turned at the sound,"Oh, h-"

"I love you. I know that I should have said that this morning, and that it must have hurt to have me run away like I did. But I need you to know that you make me so happy. I hold you so very near to my heart. I love the fact that you care so much about me. I love the way you make me feel beautiful, even if sometimes I don't believe I am. I love that when you laugh, like really laugh, your eyes squint and you tilt back your head ever so slightly. And the actual laugh itself, well I could live off that for the rest of my life, and never need anything else. You know my dark side, and you still love me. You haven't found anything you don't find attractive in some way. Anything that I find wrong with myself, you turn it around, showing me how it has made me stronger, more confident, happier. You see things that I don't see in myself, and strive to make sure that I can see it." I stopped rambling before it got more embarrassing. I glanced up at Avi, my cheeks an alarming shade of pink, almost red. His face was of complete surprise, and I don't blame him. My outburst was anything but expected. 

He strode forward and scooped me up in his arms, lifting me off the floor. He gently placed my feet back on the floor and drew slightly away, just enough so I could see his eyes. We shared a tender kiss, pulling away and smiling. We stayed in that position for several moments, enjoying each other, and thinking about our future together. 

A/N: So I am missing my boyfriend a little bit right now, and am feeling all lovey-dovey. The little speech that Kirstie gave to Avi is something I said to my boyfriend. Everything is slowly getting better! Next chapter there is going to be an interesting development for sure. 

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