Piercing Hearts (Len & John Pearce/Justice Crew Fanfic)

Chapter 2: Erasing The Past

* Lenny’s POV *

Seeing that her favourite restaurant was still up for business, Joanna and I ended up in a pasta place downtown. Apparently, it was the same one she and John always go to, which reminded her of some memories she didn’t want to remember. Imagine how awkward that was; especially when a member of their crew thought I was John, greeting us that we’re finally back again.

But Joanna corrected her, and all we received were odd looks, sort of like asking why she was out with me. Not that she had an idea I didn’t like Joanna before, but I guess it’s because she was my twin brother’s ex-girlfriend, and the Lenny that everyone knew would know not to even think about going out with my twin brother’s ex-girlfriend.

That’s the one and only rule I was breaking right now, but I couldn’t just stop myself, no matter how much I think this one’s not right.

For most of my life, I’ve been following rules that have been thrown my way, and even those that I have come up on my own, so I think this should have been like a prize for me. I mean, this has been the number one rule I broke up, and it’s not like I could stop myself from loving someone.

I couldn’t teach my heart not to thump whenever she lays her eyes on me, or when she smiles showing off the pearly white teeth, or when she giggles like drum beats, creating music with my heart. No matter how much I try to let it go, it was as if her presence was freezing up my body, gluing my feet on the ground, not allowing me to move away. That was how much she was effect she was giving me today, and up until now, I have no idea what changed.

If you ask another person who have known Joanna, he would probably say, Joanna didn’t even change. She was still that cheerful girl you’d think would attend a cheer dance competition whenever you see her. She would still be that talkative girl who never runs out of stories to tell. She was still that Joanna I would probably hate.

However, that’s not what I’m showing her right now. The fact I even asked her out for lunch was full proof that I was nuts. That if someone we knew sees us right now, they’d be throwing some slaps on my head trying to wake me up from this… strange dream. Then maybe, I’d become full aware of what I was doing and carry on with all the hating.

But I grew up. This wasn’t preschool or high school anymore. For some odd reason, I forgot about that day I hated Joanna the most for taking away my precious goldfish after she commented how cute it was, and John just took it from my hands, giving it without my proper consent.  Even remembering John telling me that he would just win another goldfish for me at the fair where we were at, though the night ended and no replacement was found.

To think I had already named him as Finn, and it was the only way I wanted a goldfish was winning that basketball game, but then a few weeks later, I just heard that Finn died. Imagine how heartbroken I was, thinking that if he ended up with me, we’d probably have more fun times together.

“…Len.” Joanna uttered in a singsong voice as I looked up from my plate and she smiled. “You have been so quiet today, like really quiet, what’s up?”

Have you ever been in such situation like you wanted to talk so bad and yet, you have no idea what topic to talk about? Like when you’re in front of your crush and you wanted to keep the conversation going, however, your mind remains all dark and blank, and you can’t think of anything else so you try to smile, until a topic comes?

Well, that wasn’t how exactly I was feeling. There was actually a question in mind I’ve been meaning to ask, but I was scared of hearing the answer, although, she was here so isn’t that enough proof she also wants to hang out and perhaps have a clean slate?