hey, its me..
HANNAH BAKER-
k just kidding.
kms.
anyway, i just thoughted id ua know update something bc i just feel in a mood to update stuff. anyway i called everyone here for a very important reason as you may all know.
im scared.
and yes the big slace was un necessary as it seems as if im a attention ho ho who just want pitty and thats not the case genuinely.
weather you choose to beleive it or not is on you, but as you may or may not know is that ive been dealing with something internal (no not cancer or ebola or ajything) for maybe two months i wanna say,,
and really i still dont want to talk about it. im scared wht they may think (op attention hoho alert expOsed :0) and ya know... its coo i gues im fine,
but i thought i was happy, but the truth is. ive never felt the same ever again. with or with out that object that brought joy in my life.
now im wondering if id ever feel like the heavens touched me anymore. do i deserve that feeling anymore....
am i a self absorbed prick..?
i tru not to be, but i act kind to cover up my selfish over protective nature. though it may seem as kindess its not!
im a bad person!!
maybe all that i felt was a mistake. and it meant nothing from the day it started ya know. i it just wasnt meant to be i guess.
maybe i mistken the warmth of heaven with the fire of hell.
i hope i didnt. because i honestly believed in it. wheater it did or not.
andyw haha
im done,
goodbye
-Maji J. Allen
