Secret Admirer

Chapter 11: Moving on

The myth of chocolate is helping someone to move on is not really true. It does help, yes, but it can't fix a broken heart that easy.

Dear Diary:
I'm finally home from the hospital. The doctors wanted to check my back again, so I had to stay one extra day at the hospital. Not only that. These past weeks have been hard. It all began with me being really shy to actually ask the guy I liked to prom, which resulted in me getting rejected. I still think he might lie to me about that he was going away, but who knows and I should stop caring about it as well. If he lied, then fine that only shows that he wasn't brave enough to tell me the truth.

I'm just sad that this didn't work and I really don't feel like going to prom or see him in school anymore either because that doesn't help me close the chapter. 
Oh well. I have to stay strong and the most important. Enough of guys now. I need to focus on my goals and my life right now. If you think about it, I've spent a lot of time thinking of Ethan, but that ends today. I'm going to forget him or at least try to forget him.

I mean he rejected me, then he doesn't know what he loses and he's not worth my attention anymore. Soon I'll be able to say,  "Ethan, who?", then be like aha, my ex-crush.

Stay strong future me! You can go through anything with just chocolate and friends as help!

"Can I come in?" Mom asks from outside my door.

Shit. I need to hide my diary. Somewhere ...

I walk around my room in a panic, then something crosses my mind.

Under my pillow.

I lie down in my bed. The white pillow is so fluffy and there's enough space to put away my black diary. 

"Come in!" I sob.

Oh no. Stop crying, Anna. It's never good to cry over a crush even though it feels nice, but stop now otherwise mom will figure out that something is wrong ...

"Anna, sweetie! Don't lie to me. Should I call Ella? It sure seems like you were down again just like the last time ... I'm worried about you." Mom says and gives me a worried look.

"No, No, I'm fine. Everything is fine, just like a bed full of roses!" I fake a smile and then the waterfall starts again. My whole face becomes soaked wet. It's so nice to not wear make-up now or else I would look like a raccoon with mascara. 

"You know you can trust me too, but if you don't want to tell me, then that's okay as well. Try at least to stop crying now, honey. It only makes me more worried." Mom stares at me and looks more worried about me than I've ever seen her before, but at the same time, it also looks like she has a sly smile on her face. Maybe she knows about my broken heart? 

"I'll be fine. It's nothing important. I just cry because of the accident at school. So. If you wanted to ask me something, ask me otherwise, please leave me alone!" I sob and wipe my eyes.

"Okay! As the doctors said, you will stay home from school today and after the weekend you can go again. Please, be more careful in school in the future. We don't want to repeat this." Mom gives me a grave look.

It's so boring to be alone when my parents are at work. Even though it is nice sometimes to get rid of my parents for a while, but with being alone means more Anna time.  More time to think about anything. Myself or Ethan or ... Damn it. No. Stop thinking about Ethan. Gaahh!

It's just so hard to forget that you ever had a crush on a certain person for a long time.

*pip pip pip*

I pick up the phone.

"Anna! In the English lesson today. I have both heard and saw something terrible. I'm so sorry. I just need to tell you something really important!" Ella says with a shaky voice on the cell phone.