Secret Admirer

Chapter 16: One last goodbye

Our mentors are talking to our class about the end of year ceremony that is coming up next, but I don't care. So instead. I write in my diary. 

DEAR DIARY!

Yesterday was awesome. I have never had so much fun at a prom before. It was my first prom as well, so that could explain why. Um. With the thought of Ethan, no comment. We danced together and had a great moment, but then I ruined it and said I loved him, then he left. His friends told me later that he went home, but the rest of the evening I had fun even though.

Mike, that annoying DJ asked me to go to prom with him even though I was already there, that's why I had fun. Uhm, yeah. I had so much fun, Mike and I talked about the 80s all the time, it was fun. He asked me since he saw me look a bit sad when I couldn't find Ethan. Mike feels like a really nice guy and I think we will become great friends.

Ella found a boyfriend as well yesterday. Not a surprise, but she did. That guy who asked her to dance with her is now her boyfriend. I think his name was Erik or Eldon. I'm not sure.

"Ooh. What are you writing?" Ella whispers to me while her boyfriend is close to her.

"Just about yesterday." I smile.

"I saw you and Mike yesterday. I think you two would make a great couple when you have forgotten your feelings for Ethan." Ella whispers.

"Speaking of Ethan. Where's he?" I ask Ella.

"Didn't you listen to our mentors? They just told us that Ethan has to leave earlier for England.  So he's coming after lunch just to say goodbye to us." Ella responds.

"What? Really? Oh, I should have paid attention to our mentors today!" I giggle too loud.

"Anna? What is so funny? Do you want to share it with the class?" One of the teachers says and stares at me.

"Ugh ... No. Uhm. Sorry!" I apologize to our mentors.

The door opens and Ethan walks in.

"Ugh. I know you guys didn't expect me to come now in the morning, but I have to leave even earlier. So, I just wanted to stop by and say one last goodbye to you all!" Ethan says with his deep voice and he has a sorrowed look on his face when he looks at each one of us.

"It's alright. We are just talking a bit about the end of the year ceremony when it is and what time everyone should be there, but go on talking it's fine!" One of the teachers responds.

"It has been fun years here to get to know you all. Camilia, I hope you find that boy in your life that makes you happy. Nick, continue being the person you are. Tom, get the driving license!" Ethan teases Tom.

Ethan makes a short pause.

"Ella, I don't know what to say to you. You are a really good friend and you are crazy, but I'm glad I have got to know you." Ethan smiles for a short second, then he goes back to look sad.

Ethan sighs.

"Last person, I would like to say goodbye to is Anna. I really didn't think from the beginning that you and I would be friends, but we are and I'm happy for that. I'm sorry for not being the person who likes you back, but you will find someone one day. My advice for you as a friend is, remember me as you didn't have any feelings for me, it will make life a lot easier trust me. The last thing before I have to leave is that I want to wish you all good luck in the future and I hope some of you will get famous one day. Bye!" Ethan says and now a tear is falling down his cheek.

"We have loved to have you in this class for so long Ethan. It was a nice speech you had as well!" One of the teachers says and it's Ms. Dayle who is speaking, but she's also crying.

"Good luck to you in the future! We will miss you!" The other teacher Mr. Fox says and he looks sad as well.

Our whole class starts to clap their hands to Ethan and it looks like he appreciates it. It's like he's taking in every last moment of this school and his friends.
"We love ya bro, remember us!" Nick and Tom shout.

"Good luck!" Ella shouts.

Camilia runs up to the front to hug Ethan.
"Goodbye!" she says loudly.

I know I should do something. I just don't know what to say or what to do.
"Go up. Say something to him, or else you will regret that you never said anything before he left!" Ella whispers in my ear.

I listen to Ella, and I walk up to the front.
I hug Ethan as well.

"I don't know what to say to you, but I don't understand why you left earlier from prom yesterday," I say to him.

"Sorry about that ... My parents called me yesterday and said that I had to finish up my packing my belongings since I'm leaving today. Also, they are waiting for me now as well." Ethan says and he looks down at his silver watch which I haven't noticed before.

"You held a great speech. Uhm. Goodbye Ethan!" I say and then I start to cry as well. 

"Bye Anna!" Ethan whispers.

"Goodbye everyone!" Ethan shouts and waves while he walks out of the classroom's door. 
Now he's gone and I will probably never see him ever again. It feels good, but at the same time sad. I can't really describe how I feel right now.