Secret Admirer

Chapter 13: Admitting

I open the message from Ethan.

Look, Anna!
I'm so sorry because I lied to you. 
Can we still be friends?

//Ethan

Yeah ... right? How am I supposed to be a friend with him when my priority is to forget about ever liking him? This doesn't make any sense at all.

I open the message from Camilia.

I'm so excited to tell u everything.
Ohhh! And the most important!!!!!!!!!!
If I said yes, or if I said no :D
Can't wait to see u after school :))))
----Camilia----

Enough of crying today. Anna. You're not going to cry more. Crying over Ethan has to stop.
So don't cry this time.

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"So, I heard from Ella that she has already told you that Ethan asked me to prom!" Camilia says and she starts to jump up and down in my bedroom of happiness.

"Yeah about that. I know we are not as close friends, but there's something I really need ..." I start to say.

"You really need to ask me how he prom proposed to me? Right, right?! Ihhh! Well. In the English class, a bunch of roses came into the classroom and then some seconds after that Ethan was standing in front of my table with chocolate and a talking teddy bear in front of me. The teddy bear says every time when I press the stomach, "Do you want to go to prom with me? Love Ethan!" It was so damn romantic aah ahh. On the teddy bear, it said, "I love you!" on as well. Ihhh. It was so cute!" Camilia says,  meanwhile her face brights up and a huge smile comes across her whole face and the makeup she was wearing made her look like a model.

"I really need to talk to you about something important. I don't know how to say this, but there's one guy I like very much, he rejected me, he lied, but somehow I can't get him out of my thoughts either. I have liked him since 7th grade so it's hard to just forget him so fast, but I'm trying." I continue to speak.

"Ooh! Interesting, but why do you tell me this if it's personal and what does this have to do with Ethan asking me to prom?" Camilia's face slowly changes as if a lightbulb hits her. 

"Oh. I get it. The guy you are talking about is Ethan right?" Camilia blushes.

"I'm so sorry, Anna! I didn't know. I promise. I'm sorry, but I said yes to him. I never thought you liked him of all people. I don't in that way, I promise. He's a nice guy and I didn't want to reject him. I promise I don't like him in that way." Camilia looks down and she avoids eye contact with me.

Why is it so hard for people to believe I like Ethan? Yeah. We might be opposite to each other. He likes the music genre pop, I like the music genre rock. His grades are low, my grades are high. He loves the color black and I love the color white, but still! Oh ... I definitely know too much about him, at least I'm not a stalker yet. Or maybe. I don't know. 

I take a deep breath.

"Camilia! I don't want to be this salty about him asking you to prom, but I can't help getting angry and jealous. Could you help me forget that I ever liked him?" I say and honestly not a tear falls from my eyes, which makes me proud of myself.

"I can call Ethan and reject him so he's available if you want. Like I said before, I don't like him in that way!"

"No, it's fine Camilia. I have to move on even though it's hard!"

"Just say to me if you want me to reject him!" 

"Thanks, Camilia! You are a good friend. I should have told you earlier about this." I say and the lump in my throat is back again. 

When you are on your way to forget a guy you have liked you are not supposed to care who he's bringing to prom for God's sake. Come on, Anna. The prom is in about three weeks a lot can change and after that, it's the end of the term, so I don't have to see Ethan after that either. He will be my big teenage crush. I mean, previously teenage crush, or really I don't know.