The time till the show happend passed quickly but still felt like an eternity.
Maybe we are impatient in a moment, but as it passes we just wish we could get back and actually appericate for what it was.
Time passes and once it's over it can never come back.
Maybe I'm just quoting my mom when she had one glass wine too much and starts talking about time and that we all could die in any second.
And yet she told me that youth is unlimited, I could still construe this paragraph she spoke and tell you how deep her thoughts can get, but personally I think she just said those words to distract herself from her face that was slowly ageing, so to cut it short, as she spoke those words they were just empty words to her.
But I think those words were pretty meaningful.
Being young forever.
Maybe that was my actual goal.
And as I started to appericate the moments more and more and live my young life as I wanted to, I found myself a lot around Yoongi and his fellows.
Sometimes I would come over to him, but Yoongi never liked to have me over.
Maybe he was ashamed of the rather poor household he lived in but to be honest I couldn't care less about his parents financial situation.
He mostly took me with him to his friends houses.
"Isn't there a spanish phrases that descriebes what I do to her?"
He randomly asked once as he, Hoseok and me walked along the streets.
"Mi Casa es su Casa?"
I asked with a raised eyebrow and Yoongi nodded in agreement.
"Smart one, you got there Yoongi."
Hoseok mumbled and gave me a smile.
I don't know why he said that, but I could guess it, since Yoongi laid his arm around me as we walked and groaned:
"Hands off Hobi."
By that time I hoped that Yoongi had a crush, maybe just a mini, mini one on me.
I could have praid for it but I wasn't religious.
And then it just came in my head.
"Hey, you now my mom said youth is limited."
Yoongi frowned:
"Is she old and was just desperate."
Maybe I should mention that Yoongis words were kinda harsh but suprisingly never when it came to me.
"I guess. But I still like to think deeper into it, you know?"
Hoseok nodded and I could see how Yoongi thought about it, probably mentally taking notes.
"So what is your point?"
I shrugged:
"I want to be young forever."
Yoongi and Hoseok looked at me, like, they both were impressed, but could relate at the same time.
"You mean like, going on parties and never feeling how your body actually gets tired of it?"
I could tell that Hoseok just got excited, cause he started to do some weird dance moves and had a big smile on his face, showing his teeth.
Can we just talk about how cute his smile with braces was, like I mean nobody topped Yoongi, but jeez.
Before I could answer Yoongi cut him off and said:
"I think she thought deeper than this. How I get it is that sometimes, you are just afraid of becomming older and losing time that you probably need to work for your dreams and achieve your goals. Correct me if I'm wrong, like you do when it comes to english. But even though you're affraid you just try to hide it and never give up."
And there was my heart slowly meling, furthermore my breath was taken away.
Yoongi was probably the first person who quoted my thoughts, without hearing them before.
I didn't notice how I started to stare at him and how he stared back at me, till Hoseok actually broke the silence.
"You two should hold hands."
we gave him a questioning look.
"Do it for me."
He said before he formed a heart with his arms above his head.
I chuckled and so did Yoongi.
"Man I hate doing aegyo, so would you just hold Yoongis hand, this boy needs to collect experiences."
I could tell how embarrassed Yoongi was. Usually he was the cool one, but for some reason I managed to display nothing but calmness and when he turned around to me after scolding Hoseok, I gave him a smile causing him to blush even more and hide his face.
"If you hide your face you can't see. Give me your hand, I can lead you."
Yoongi mumbled something but in the end I was the one taking his hand and interwinning my pale and warm fingers with his even paler and cold ones.
It was as like two colours mixed and became to one.
Maybe I was blue for this moment.
Maybe I was a part of Yoongi and he was a part of me.
Maybe I'm just talking bullshit right now, cause he was filling me with love and I didn't want to wait for the day to get kissed by him infront of the audience.
I didn't care about this moment of suprise when he would kiss me unexpected.
I wanted his pale lips against mine.
I wanted to press my dark pink painted once against his and leave my lipstick colour on his lips, so he could rub it away and have the lipstick smudged on his hand.
But my stupid self wasn't that far on that day.
So we arrived at Jins Home, which was very comfortable.
And Jins couch was quite comfortable as well.
He had a small room, next to his older brothers room. It was full filled with them and me once again this group of 6 people, including me. I never thought I would enjoy other peoples company that much as I did at that day, when I sat on the little couch in Jins room and observed the boys talking, till Yoongi walked up to me and sat down next to me.
His arm wraped around my shoulder.
He had good friends.
His friends were real and would always take care of him.
I knew that whatever I would do, I didn't have to worry about him.
And maybe that made me act risky.
Without any hesitation I closed the gap between Yoongi and me, leaned my head against his shoulder and basically we were cuddling.
I could have heard Yoongis heartbeat, but mine was too loud.
And for a few seconds I closed my eyes and felt Yoongis breath, inhaled his smell and noticed his hand slowly comming closer to pet my head.
I knew they were probably looking at us, but not in a bad way.
Yoongis friends loved seeing him actually being happy.
And maybe we would have stayed like this forever.
But time passes, am I right?
