Diary entry 12.

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23 May

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Today I accidentally bumped into Alicia, she got all flustered when she saw me, making me smirk at the effect I had on her as her cheeks went a lighter shade of red. She didn't make eye contact, and I could sense her nervousness from a mile away, while she fidgeted with her finger, standing in front of me, having no idea what to say or do.

I didn't ask her about yesterday knowing how uncertain she still was. And decided to take her somewhere, just to ease her up. I had several ideas pop up in my mind of places to take her to but I knew she was still a virgin, fuck she hasn't even had her first kiss yet. How is that possible? So I respected her choice and chose not to take advantage of the situation. She was too naive to even listen to me in the first place.

I took her to watch a movie, something I never thought I would do after I changed but I did, and I enjoyed it. Not the movie, no, but the way she sat so close to me when a horror scene popped up on the screen, the way she held my hand tightly, she felt protected with me and I couldn't help but smile at her cuteness. This was much better than taking her myself, I'd rather take things slow than loose her once and for all.

After the movie ended, we ate hamburgers to ease down our hunger although I wasn't hungry, I was never too hungry but I decided to eat just to make her more comfortable around me.

And before I knew it, we both were standing in front of her doorstep. "Thank you for today, Jimin." She smiled, my name sounded so much more better from her mouth, fuck, I just wanted to touch her in all the right places, to kiss her until she was out of breathe, to feel her laying next to me in the morning but I controlled myself. I've never had this urge to be with someone as much as I had with her. This made me think was it really love or just lust?

"Jimin about yesterday-" She started as she broke eye contact with me again, the nervous aura around her building up all over again. I stopped her if she wasn't too certain, she didn't have to like me back although this was all a lie. She has to like me back.

"I-I think I like you too, Park Jimin." Her voice was small and weak but enough for me to hear, I felt something inside my heart, did it just swell up or something? I had no idea but I gave her a smile. She said my name again, and I can't help to hear my name from of her mouth while she moans as I pleas- fuck I need to stop or else I won't be able to control myself anymore.

"Then I can do this, right?" I asked as I took a step closer to her, promising to not let my hormonal side take over me while I do this. She looked up at me, her eyes wide as her lips slightly parted, making them look more kissable after every moment. I leaned in slowly, as I pressed my lips softly on the corner of her mouth, making sure not to fully kiss her. I didn't wanted to take away her first kiss just like that. So instead I gave her a hint of what was coming next. I felt a shiver run down her spine because of my hands that were placed behind her back. We were close but still far away, I wanted to get more closer to her but I decided not to. And with that I took a  step back, she still seemed to dazed by everything but I knew she liked it.

I smirked at her and then left, making my way to the house only to see V behind me. A weird look plastered on his face, what was he up to now?

"Jimin, don't fall in love with her." He spoke, his voice hoarse and deep as if he was totally another person. And he sure was, his dark side was the one in control right now but I didn't let that effect me or my life.

"Fuck you and your advises, this is my life V and I will do whatever I want to. You better stay away from me and her before I do something that I might regret." Was what I told him as I dragged him away from her house and towards ours just so she won't hear any of this.

"Oh no Jiminie- you won't do something you regret, but I surely will if you don't stop now." He spoke, a serious yet sinister look on his face as he gave me a smile, so fake and so devilish that made me doubt him even more.

"You won't." Was all I said as I went inside, this was enough for today. He wasn't in his right mind. He'll be fine tomorrow, hopefully.

PJM.

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