Grace's Pov
I woke up around 10:30 am and my first thought was to text Hannah to see if she wanted to go to lunch later.
"Hey Han, wanna go to lunch around noon?" I texted
She responded back quickly just like I knew she would because she always gets up earlier than me.
"Yeah sure Grace. I'll pick you up then?" She replied
"Ok see you then ;)" I replied
I think I'm starting to have feelings for Hannah and I don't want to be just friends with her. She does have a girlfriend named Angela that I quite like. They seem really happy together and they've been together for about two months now. I wouldn't want to end their relationship but I can't just ignore my feelings...can I?
Maybe this is just a phase. I haven't been in a relationship for a long time so maybe I'm just telling myself that I like her but I don't actually.
I know that Hannah had a crush on me for the longest time and it never really bothered me. Maybe she still has a crush on me.... I hope so...
Ugh gosh why am I having these thoughts? She's my best friend. What am I thinking?
I think I'm going to tell her over lunch because I'm pretty sure she likes me and always has.
Hannah's Pov
I get to Grace's house and honk the horn so she'll know I'm here.
She comes out in a black dress and red heels.
Why is she so dressed up?
Oh no...is there some special occasion that I forgot about?
I don't think so.
Grace opens the door and gets in and greets me.
"Hey grace! Um... Is there a reason why you're dressed up?" I asked
"No, I just felt like dressing up and I've been wanting to wear this outfit for awhile now so I am. Do you like it?" Grace asked
"Yeah it's pretty" I said not really knowing what to say.
We get to the restaurant and lucky for us, it isn't too crowded so we don't have to wait for a table.
"So what's new?" Grace asks
"I mean I just saw you last night but um nothing really, Angela and I are thinking about going on a weekend road trip somewhere" I say trying to make a conversation.
She frowns for a second then brightens up.
"That's great! That'll be romantic!" She winks and sets her hand on top of mine.
What is happening? She never really touches me. Is she flirting with me?
Dear god I hope not. That would ruin everything.
She stays silent for what seems like forever so I ask "what's wrong?"
She just waves her hand and says "I'm fine"
"Oh come on Grace. Something is obviously bothering you. Just tell me, don't you trust me?"
"Yes of course I do Hannah."
"Then tell me." I say with a worried look on my face.
I'm worried about her, she's been acting different for the past two days and I just want to help.
"You see Hannah....erm... Well uhh..... I've been feeling different feelings for the past week now" she says while looking down.
"About what?" I ask looking confused
"You" she practically whispers but I'm still able to hear.
"What about me? Did I do something wrong?" I ask
"No no of course not Hannah.... Ya know what? Nevermind. I'm just overthinking."
"Ok.... Do you mind if I ask you something?"
"Yeah sure. What is it?" She asks locking her deep brown eyes with mine.
"Um do you maybe have feelings for me?" I ask slowly.
I'm waiting for her to burst out laughing saying that that was ridiculous but she doesn't.
Grace looks down and nods slowly.
I feel my eyes fill with tears. I can't believe this. How could she do this to me? I have a girlfriend who I am falling for deeply. She can't just say she has feelings for me.
I leave $20 on the table and start walking towards the door.
I look back at Grace while I'm crying and I see that she's just staring at me with her eyes filled with tears.
Grace's Pov
I don't understand.
I thought she would be happy.
I thought she liked me.
I was so stupid. Who could like an awkward, self-hating girl like me?
Everyone always tells me that I'm beautiful but obviously not if no one shows any interest in trying to get to know me besides my friends.
Now I've hurt Hannah and I feel so bad about it.
I don't understand why she was so upset but I should leave her alone for now at least.
I called a cab to get home and called Mamrie.
"Yo Grace wha- Grace? Are you crying?" Mamrie asks in a soothing voice.
"Um yeah. I'm sorry" I apologize.
"Grace you know I don't do well with crying people. I'm coming over" she hangs up
Ten minutes later Mamrie shows up and barges in and finds me in my bed curled up in a ball crying.
"Hey hey hey..... It's ok Hun. Whatever it is, it can be fixed. Come here" she says. I sit up and look at her.
"Whoa girl. That makeup does not do you any good when it's dripping down your face. Tell me what happened" Mamrie says pulling me in for a hug.
It takes me a couple of minutes to start talking but Mamrie doesn't mind she's just rubbing my back and hushing me.
"I....I sort of have feelings for Hannah" I finally say between my cries.
Mamrie pulls away and looks at me.
"Hun, that's great! I always knew there was something between you two!" She giggles, gently wiping away my tears.
"But why are you so sad? Is it because you've just discovered that you like a girl? Because there's nothing wrong with that." She says
"I know, it's not that.....I told her while we were eating at Chili's and she left crying and looked really mad at me" I say.
It hits me again as I say it and I pull Mamrie back in for a hug.
"Oh Gracie. Why'd you tell her? She has a girlfriend that she's falling for ya know." Mamrie asks.
"I couldn't keep it a secret Mamrie! They're my feelings and they needed to be told to her even though she has an absolutely gorgeous girlfriend. I can't live up to Angela's standards. She's too perfect. You're right.....I shouldn't have told her" I say.
"Grace, don't compare yourself to her! You're just as gorgeous as she is! Don't doubt yourself" Mamrie says.
I know she's just lying to make me feel better but I appreciate the effort.
"Mames, what do I do?" I ask hopeful that she'll give me an answer.
