Meet The Mafia Queen: The Revelations

xxxii. beg

Vanessa's POV

I BIT my lower lip as I close my eyes. I took a deep sigh and glanced at the wall clock. Eleven o'clock in the evening.

It's already eleven o'clock yet I can't sleep. After Axel told me to stay beside him, I did not think twice to make up an excuse.

Hindi ko alam kung bakit ko iyon ginawa. I felt an urge to walk away and stay here in the living room. He even offered one of his guest room, maybe because he feels that I don't want to be with him.

But that's not my point! I can't be with him or even lay beside him because everytime our eyes meet? I remember what I saw in that house.

Everytime I stare at his eyes, I couldn't help not to be in pain. It hurts to say but whenever I remember that scene, all I can feel is detestation.

And I don't want to hate him, to dislike him without knowing his side. Hindi ko ito kakayanin.

I sighed once again and stood up. I really can't sleep. Not because I'm staying here in the living room but because I'm still bothered about what happened.

I want to know everything what happened before I saw them, kissing.

Nagbabakasakali ako na kapag nalaman ko ang saloobin niya, baka sakaling mawala ang sakit na nararamdaman ko. "Geez." I murmured and walk upstairs.

I suddenly felt an urge to go upstairs and check him. Kahit na nasaktan ako sa nakita ko, there's a part of me that doesn't want to give up on him.

When I reached his room, I saw him reading a book. The lights are off and only the lampshade serves as his light.

Our eyes met "Hey, baby."

His husky voice made my body shiver. "H-hey." I tried to smile

He closed the book he's reading, "Uminom na ako ng gamot." His lips pointed an empty glass

He sounds defensive huh.

I went near him and put my palm on his forehead. Hindi na ito gaano kainit compared earlier.

"Very good." I told him as he smiles

I arrange some messy stuffs on the side of his bed. While arranging those, I couldn't help not to ask myself

Why am I even doing this?

But then, I ignored myself and continue arranging these stuffs. I felt his eyes on me while pouring a glass with water.

As I finish pouring the glass with water, I gaze at his eyes "Matulog ka na, it's already late."

He didn't answer me and he continues to stare at me. What the hell? Are we in a staring contest?

"Sleep now, Axel." I ordered

"Saan ka pupunta?" I curse in my mind

"L-living room." I said

"Aren't you going to sleep?" He asks me, I half smiled "I have movies here, gusto mo bang manood tayo? Hindi pa naman ako inaantok."

He seems excited while saying that.

"I'm not in a mood to watch movies," I shrugged my shoulder and get the book away from his hand. "You should rest."

I placed the book on the side table and gazed at him "Good night." I tried to give him a reassuring smile

I was about to turn my back to turn off the switch of the lampshade but he held my hand and pull me towards him.

My face and his are inches away from each other. My eyes widened because of his sudden move.

I was expecting an excruciating words from my mouth but surprisingly, I remained silent and stared at his face.

"I know why you're acting like this." He's staring at my eyes

How could he stare at me while our faces almost meet each other?!

I tried to move away and turn my back again but I didn't succeed. In a fast move, he managed to pull me again but this time my nose touches his nose.

It means that, one move and my lips will surely felt his lips. I gulped and I'm sure he saw that.

"W-what do you mean?" I tried not to stutter but I failed. "Let me go."

"Let's talk." He says. I know what he's talking about

As much as I want to talk to you about that, I can't.

I looked away.

I want to know his side, I want to hear him out pero sa tuwing sisimulan na niya, parang ayoko itong marinig

This might be silly but being the Mafia Queen for almost a decade, this is the first time I felt scared for hearing someone else's explanation.

I'm scared that the truth will hurt me. I'm scared that he might tell me something that will affect me.

He's the only person who made me feel loved and special despite of my cruelty.

He's the only person who treated me as his life. His world. His Everything.

Yet I don't think I'll be able to concede his exegesis and I don't want that to happen.

"L-let's talk tomorrow, okay?" My voce is shaking. "Kailangan mo ng mag p-pahinga." I stood up and he let go of my hand

I walked away as I bit my lip. This is my chance to talk to him but I'm choosing to walk away from him.

I was forcing myself not to let go of any tear from my eyes but unexpectedly, I felt him behind my back.

"Vanessa..."

Hugging me from behind while begging me to stay.