Please Don't Go (Seventeen Fanfiction) [#Wattys2017]

Chapter 7: I Can't Make You Love Me

Joshua's POV

I am tired of Seungkwan and his jealousy. Seungkwan had his chance with Nora and he broke her heart. She loved him, but he was just playing games with her. Now he's jealous, because I have treated her better than he ever did. Seungkwan is like a brother to me, but I am in love with Nora. We didn't get together in the way i had hoped, but that doesn't matter. She loves me. I know she does, even if she can't say it.

6 months ago February 23rd,2016 (flashback)

I was alone in my room reading when Nora ran in. I examined her face and i noticed she was crying. She tried to leave, but i grabbed her wrist. She turned to face me as i slowly stood up.

"Whats wrong Nora?" I asked.

"Seungkwan broke up with me for Monica." She sobbed as i pulled her in for a hug.

"I'm so sorry Nora." I said as i rubbed her back softly.

"Why couldn't he be like you? So sweet, loving, kind, caring. You have always been here if i needed you." She said as she slowly pulled away, then leaned back in. Our lips touched softly at first, until they were pushed together. They fit together so perfectly, like 2 puzzle pieces.

(flashback ends)

I remember that night so clearly. The touches, the kisses, her soft skin, everything. It was so perfect. I made loved to her for the first and only time that night. She hasn't touched me in that way again. I miss it. I miss her touch. I miss the feeling she gave me that night. Now, she will barely hug me. I feel like i have done something wrong, and everytime I ask she won't tell me. We have been together almost 6 months. I'm going to ask her to marry me. I hope that she will say yes. I know I am young, but that doesn't mean i don't know what love is. I am slowly walking to mine and Nora's bedroom. I carefully walk over to her bed. Yes you heard right. Her bed. She said she wanted us to have separate beds, because that's what she is used to. I'm ok with that. I gently wake her up. She turns over and faces me.

"What is it Joshua?" She said, she sounded annoyed. Then again she doesn't like it when I wake her up.

"I need to ask you something." I said happily as i lightly sit on the bed. She gave me a look, so I stood back up. Then she slowly sat up in her bed.

"What is it?" I then pulled out the small black box and i reveled the ring.

"Will you marry me?" I said with a big smile.

"No." She said coldly and my smiled faded away.

"W-What?" I said sadly as I closed the box.

"I can't marry you."

"Why not?" I said as tears ran down my face.

"Because I love Seungkwan."

"THEN WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU WITH ME!? I HAVE GIVEN YOU EVERYTHING! MY HEART, MY VIRGINITY, MY LOVE, EVERYTHING! AND AFTER 6 MONTHS YOU STILL LOVE SOMEONE WHO BROKE YOUR HEART AND IS DATING YOUR BEST FRIEND!? WHAT THE FUCK NORA!?" I screamed as tears rolled down my face.

"I'm sorry." She whispered quietly.

"OH MY GOD! NORA IS SORRY WELL THAT FIXES EVERYTHING!" I yelled as I walked over to my closet and began packing my clothing.

"Well what did you want me to do Joshua!?" She said as she got out of bed and watched me pack my clothing to me.

"IF YOU DIDN'T LOVE ME YOU SHOULD HAVE TOLD ME 6 MONTHS AGO!" I yelled as I slammed my suitcase shut and walked out the door, but i left the ring on the kitchen counter. I checked into a hotel and went to bed. I cried myself to sleep over a woman who didn't love me.

Hey guys! Sorry it took so long to update. More on the way. Stay strong my beautiful readers, keep dreaming, I love you all and I will update soon.-Coolcat51