Please Don't Go (Seventeen Fanfiction) [#Wattys2017]

Chapter 43- Not Over You

Hoshi's POV

  A month. I haven't seen her in a month. How can I after what I did? I killed my baby, Woozi's baby, and Shay's love for me. I miss her so much. She was my first everything. My first love, first kiss, first date, first time, like I said first everything. I want to call her, just to tell her I'm sorry. But at the end of the day I can't bring myself to do. I know she hates me and she has every right to. My lonlyness consumed me and led me to something that I never wanted to do. I never meant to hurt her or Woozi or the babies, but I did and now I am paying the price for it. I can't get her out of my mind. I know that she is happy now, I know that she loves Woozi deeply and dearly. I know that Woozi loves her probably more than she loves him. I'm happy for them. They disserve that, but at the same time I miss her. I want her back, but I'm not going to get her back. I'm not asking, and I'm not trying. I have hurt her enough. She disserves to be happy. So instead of going to see her or calling I'm going to write her a letter.

Dear Shawna,

I know that I have hurt you. I know that I have hurt Woozi. I also killed my baby and Woozi's baby. I will never forgive myself for what I have done. I don't think you will either, mainly because you hate me now. That's ok, I understand. I did a terrible thing. I'm so sorry for all the pain that I have caused you and Woozi. I won't bother you anymore, because you have the right to be happy. Also I want you to be happy, even if it's not with me. I wish you and Woozi the best. I love you. I still love you. I will always love you. And it's because I love you that I am staying away. Ever since we broke up all I have done is caused you pain, and I never intended that to happen. I hope you and Woozi have a long and happy life together. Maybe one day I will move on. Maybe one day we can put the past aside and be friends. But for now I will stay away.

Love Always, Kwon Soonyoung Your Hoshi

P.S. If you ever do forgive me, I will spend the rest of my life making it up to you as best as I can.

I then placed the note in an envelope and mailed it. I know it won't make things right, but hopefully it's a good start.

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