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10-Alex-Trying New Things

Hey Chapter ten, will we see each other again?

     Several weeks had passed by now with Oli and I texting, as well as Facetimimg, every night/day. We both told the fans that the question at the con was just a joke and that we aren't actually dating. They believed it somehow and life went back to normal... well as normal as it gets for Youtubers. Anyhow, Jill got better. She's enrolled in an all girls boarding school this year instead of risking suicide again at her other one. She got out of the actual hospital about a month ago, but her mother has had her stay in a mental hospital until she's fully recovered. But more on that later, this is a happy chapter.

     Lily knocked on my door to grab my dirty clothes. It's become a thing where we rotate chores, and this week is her turn to do the laundry. I faked typing on my laptop until she left the room. Then when she left I put it on my night table and got out my clipboard.

     It's the one I used for college, so it opens like a shell to the inside. All I have in it is a notebook, my fountain pen and a bunch of cartridges. I'm not allowed to use a converter anymore because last time I did it got.. well everywhere.

     Anyhow I pulled the pen, a couple cartridges, and the notebook out, shutting it again. Then clipped the notebook to board, testing my pen in the corner. It still worked, thank god, so I began writing. Me and Oli thought it would be cute if we wrote letters to eachother, just in case you wanted to know what the heck was happening.

      "Dear Oli," I started, but then I exed it out. This has to be sweet. It has to be cute or something. "Dearest Oliver" I wrote. But then I remembered Angelica Schuyler's grammar lesson in take a break, and added a comma after dearest. And then I exed it all out because that's way to formal. "Oli you lil ray of sunshine you- ok I'll stop," I wrote losing my head.

      Yea, not what I'm going to go with but I think that entry is nice. I exed it out too and grabbed a jawbreaker to put in my mouth. I was stressing on making this perfect so I needed something to bite and I couldn't bite my pen... so this is the next best thing.

      But then it hit me.

       "You know what? Who cares about normal letter format. Because we are OTP and I think that's good enough. I don't need an introduction to say that"  I think that works. Because you know what?This note is important to me. One out of two of the cats came and curled up by my side. He's mine, and Flicker is his name. I petted his head and felt nostolgic to the old days. I got him when I was roughly 12 and he's been with me for the past 9 or so years. I remember digging through Pokémon looking for something to name him, then having my mom name him flicker because the way he flicks his tail. Good times, good times.

     Oh and there's Lily's cat rebel, she's a kitten. Lame, I know. Anyhow, I stared at the paper and tried to think of anything else to add to that. It's hard to follow up but I managed.

      "Dramatic entrances, my favorite. Anyway so uh... letters. Woo. I'm not quite sure what to add after that though. I mean this is a cute idea but it's really friggin' difficult. And on top of that I have to write slowly so you can read it. So uh.. emo poems? Or no.

      I mean I am an emo poem pretty much but still. So.. god this is so awkward. I want to write a lovely letter to you but to be frank I'm an idiot. So yea. Anyway I... don't know. All my ideas where wasted on that opening. I'm sorry I'll just go.

Winkedy wonk,
Alex"

        And that was it. The first letter between us that future historians will study... and it's garbage. Great. Anyways, I guess I'm actually happy with it, I mean human contact isn't my thing so this is good enough, but legit, four years at Harvard studying writing and this is all I can do. Just fricking great. 

      Anyways I smiled and put it onto a letter. I wrote our addresses and drew a heart besides the stamp. Girlfriending isn't my thing so uh.. yea. I threw on his MCR hoodie over my shirt, leaving the letter on my bed. Other than that, I was wearing sweat pants and a plain white tee. I'm lazy, and that's okay. I slipped on some black flats on my way out of the room and headed downstairs. "Hey Lil, I'm running to the store to get some binge eating food, want anything" I said to her as I put my hand on the door to leave. She shook her head no, so I left.

      I know what you're all thinking, "but Alex you don't have to go to the store or lie about having written a letter. Can't you tell your best friend about you and your boys letters?" Nope. Dearest human, I cannot because then she would want to read it and I would feel bad. I guess I just need to stay introverted a little to keep myself sane. I mean the world knows most everything about me and what they don't know lily does. I want something to be between me and Oli that is our secret. You know besides the fact that Scott likes her and she likes Scott. But most the fans know that, we've seen fanfics.

       Anyhow I opened the mailbox and looked inside. There was already a small package in there so I took it and shoved it into my pocket. I'm sure it's just some art supplies i ordered finally coming in. Speaking of which, the mail truck came to a halt outside our house and I walked up to it. "I'm looking for a sir Alex Terrell" the mailman said holding a package under his arm. "It's miss  Alex Terrell but yea that's me." I replied, placing a hand on my hip. They looked at me and smirked, "yea whatever, sign here" he said giving me the thing. I signed it with my full name, Alex Luke Terrell, and handed it back. They then handed me the package and left. I walked back up to the house, ran to put it in my room along with the smaller one, then left again.

      I walked down the street to the nearby gas station and walked in. I know the other store is just a block or so away, but things tend to be cheaper here and I don't have the heart to see Camryn again. Ever. Anyways I headed in and got a crap load of things, then left. I mean I say it's a ton, but really it was a couple of two liters, like 3 bags of chips and a bag or so of candy. Not that much compared to what I'm used to.

     I looked like an overworked soccer mom carrying it all back to the house. When I opened the door lily was on the couch reading something. I put the things in my room and sat on the bean bag I had thrown into the corner. I pulled out a pocket knife from under the dresser and opened the small package first. It was some watercolours from Joel and Lizzie that said "hey your birthday is coming up soon, so we went ahead and got you this." I had completely forgotten about my birthday, holy crum! August 16, it's one of my favorite days of the year and I forgot about it! Anyhow I really liked the watercolours, and from what I hear the brand is amazing.

Then I grabbed the bigger one and sighed, staring at it. I noticed the address this time and saw that it was... from Oli? I opened it and smiled. It was the teddy bear he gave me at Vidcon, I guess I forgot it at the hotel. Or he didn't give me one, I forgot. I picked up the note on the top and sure enough that's exactly what happened. I love how Oli remembered it for me. I love how 0li's handwriting is. I love most everything about him. I don't know if I'm in love with him but.. he's great.

I put the bear on my bed and then realized something: the letter to oli was missing. I shoved everything aside and rushed to the living room. I saw Lily sitting on the couch with the framiliar yellow paper in her hands... Well crap.

End of ten, Scott likes men