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12-Alex- NOPE

Chapter twelve, then there's Melve 

      Me and Lily had just gotten into our first fight in months. I mean we bicker but this is so different. I stormed into my room and slammed the door. I'm sorry but my trust was completely demolished, and she wants to make sure I don't make a mistake? Um no honey that's not how this works. But whatever I mean I'm just a lame wanna be Dan Howell, aren't I?

I heard her leave the house and immediately connected to the Bluetooth speaker on my nightstand. I began playing Hollywood Undead as loud as I could get it and let out a loud sigh. I just.. I feel so betrayed. And after what I said I'm sure she doesn't want me in her house. In her future child's room.. I hold her back. I know Adrian was a terrible person, but if it wasn't for me scaring off every guy in the vicinity of her she'd be happy.

I walked to my small closet and grabbed my old quilt. I stored it away because it doesn't match the aesthetic of my room, but dear god it's gotten me through everything. When I shipped off to college it kept me calm and let me stay sane. When my dog died it comforted me. It has been through everything. I've had it my whole life, and it still drowns me. The quilt was made by my grandma for my great grandpa and when he died I got it. Ever since then (age 11) its been my safe zone. Its white and orange patterned checkers and lordy Jesus I love it so much.

    I  got on my bed and grabbed my phone, pulling up my texts with oli. I stared at the ceiling thinking of anything to tell him. Its just.. I don't know. I know I freaked over something stupid but I just.. I don't know. I feel betrayed. A million things came to my mind but all I said was..

A: hey..
O: what's wrong?
A: me and lil got into a fight..
O: are you okay?!!
A: yea.. But she read the letter and kinda stabbed me In the back
O: you could have just said you weren't okay
A: I missed an opportunity to quote gerard, didn't I
O: yep.
A: oli I don't know what to do because I can't exactly live in the same house ad her after this, I can barely stand the thought of her Atm.
A: but I have no where to go because my mom is out of state and I don't really have any other friends
O: what about me?
A: boi you are in England I can't exactly come stay with you..
O: but cmon.. Let's move in together

      I stared at my phone in shock. What? WHAT! Holy crap what have I done? Did I just guilt trip Oliver into letting me move in with him?! I think I did. I am.. What am I doing? I don't know. Do you know? Nope! No you don't, because none of us do because this is confusing and sounds like a 13 year old writing a fanfic! Oh god, is that what my life is? A crappy emo fanfic?! I hope not.

A: oli I don't really know..
O: cmon al!
A: don't call me that.
O: lex?
A: no.. Alex is fine.
O: hey wait don't change the subject;
O: you KNOW you want toooooo
A: I do but.. Isn't that asking a lot? I'm sorry I'm not used to change and I get really bitchy and I can't put you through that so I don't know..
O: just do it, you can send your things to my house and I'll put them in the guest room until you get here then you can move into that room (or mine ;) ) and it will be amazing!!!!!!
A: are you sure? I mean its only been a few months and what if something happens..
O: then we consult the fabrics!
A: fabrics?
O: shut up you know what I Kent
A: so.. Were doing this?
O: yessss cmon I know you want to
A: fine.. I'll do this and if this is a joke I'm leaving you
O: salty much?
A: yes.

       I'm still speechless.. Not only will I be moving in with the greatest guy ever but I'll be in FREAKING ENGLAND. But yea. Yea I'm chill. I am fine. I'm okay! Soap opera kinda day and that is okay. Do you know why? Because I'm fine. Yea, i'm finneee. This is fine. Did I say I'm fine? Because I am. Me and him talked a bit more until I got tired and fell asleep, heart racing and music blaring.

For him you have to delve, but that's the end of twelve