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25- Lily- is it the end?

Twenty five, I let this book thrive

       I woke up and looked over at Scott. "Finally, you're up." He stood up and put on a shirt. "Listen," my voice lingered "I know that you want me to make up with Alex, but I can't. And if that means I can't date you... well I'm sorry, but I have a moral boundary that she crossed." My thoughts raced as I realized what I just said.

     He seemed shocked. I stood up and headed for the door, regretting what had been said. "Wait," he said "it... it's okay" he trailed off. I looked over at him. He smiled. "How about we just go there, you tell her that, and then we can just let it be. But I refuse to let this go on." I held onto the door knob, my eyes watering. "I love you Lillian.  I want to be with you and make this work, but you have to let me," I couldn't do it anymore. I ran to him and hugged him, sobbing. 

    He talked into my hair, "let's just go over there."

       -&- switch to Alex POV -&-

       Me and Oliver stared into space on the couch. It felt as if the world was over, because it was. The message was sent last night, but we only got it after the wedding. We drove all night, just wanting to be home. Neither one of us could fully grasp the severity of what had happened. Gone. Never to be seen again.

       We made plans to sell Fluffy, Dan and Phil decided to get a license to keep Roxy. I was never to keen on having pets but I can't take care of anything now, considering what had happened. Jill, my little girl. Jill, the fan who brought me back to Oli. She's dead. The worst part? We knew she was suicidal, and had braced for that. But... this just came too sudden. A drunk driver hit her.. in plain day. She was supposed to be safe at the school!

    I heard a knock at the door and went to get it. Maybe it's a killer, coming to take us too. It wasn't. Lily stood, dressed in Scott's clothes, and guess who was with her? I'm happy for her, I guess, but if she is here to rub it in I don't care. "Alex I wanted to tell you that I'm not sorry. I know that this fight got out of hand, but that doesn't justify what you did. But from now on I hope you're happy, because I sure am." Scott seemed shocked and was about to add on, but I slammed the door.

     "Alex! Open this door and tell me your opinion! I did not come all this way just to be ignored!" She yelled. I didn't want to risk waking the boys, so I did. Oli came with. "You want to know my opinion? Well I think that you are insane. You come to my home, with some arm candy and tell me what I already know. Did you know that Jill is dead? No. So leave before I call the police. And Scott?" He looked up. "Good to know where you stand." We shut the door and went back to sitting on the couch.

     "It'll be okay." Oli said, "we just have to forget about them." I knew that this hurt him too, so I just stuck through it. Maybe it's for the best, you know. Not having a wide friend group. It sucks that she came here, but it served as a distraction. Now me and him sit, talking about how mad that made us, instead of Jill. I love her, and even with her talking to me like that, I still do. 

     Jill's death was foreseen, it hurts like hell though. She will always be apart of us. I guess we just thought she was going to kill herself for so long, when she actually does die it isn't as traumatizing as it should be. Live and forget, right?

twenty five, what a time to be alive.