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33-Alex-Ancient History

Thirty-Three, she fell in love with a bee

         I saw Lauren and her family walking down the street and quickly dove into the alleyway, the boys fallowing after me. "Alex, what's going on?" oli asked me. I felt my eyes welling up with tears. "Please, please don't make me face her. I can't, I seriously can't." I felt my throat closing in as I said it. This is all too much. I can hardly breathe at this point, but Chai stood up and started walking towards them.

       I have no clue what he's doing but I really hope it works. Him and Laurens husband started smiling and talking about lord knows what. Oli and I took this as cover to run to the car and get in. I sat in the driver's seat, trying to stop panicking. After a few minutes Chai came back and got in the backseat. I started the engine and started to drive off. 

      "What happened back there?" Oli asked me. I pulled a few strands of hair out of my face and started telling him the story,

        Lily, Lauren and I used to be bestfriends. The completely unstoppable trio. But then we started breaking apart in high school. At first, no one noticed. We had stopped hanging out, We didn't do the same clubs, and we didn't see each other anymore. Lauren and Lily fell in love with guys, and I was left out of the loop. 

       So I got to college after we graduate. After a while I get a letter from Lauren inviting me to come to her wedding. When I get there it was just amazing. She was so happy and I was happy for her. I mean, when your friends get married of course you're happy. This was also about the time I started realizing that Lily had an abusive relationship, but I didn't pay too much attention to it. 

    At the reception I didn't do much. I watched the little ones and ate too much cake, but that was it. When I went up to Lauren to congratulate her, her mom intercepted me. She told me that I was still a bad influence and that I was not welcome here. After she walked away, I still went up to Lauren. She went off on me, told me I wasn't supposed to be here.

      She blames me for her wedding night being ruined, and says that I'm the reason if she ever get's a divorce. I left that night crying, looking for Lily, but she never showed. I went back to campus and stayed there until I got my bachelors, But I stopped after that because I wanted to be there for Lily. 

        When I got done telling them all this, we had already pulled into the driveway. I sulked inside and fell into bed, checking my phone. It's only 2PM but it feels like this day will never end. I set my phone up to okay music off of my speaker and started unboxing all our things. When I was done I looked around and noticed that Oli and Chai had left. I went into my bedroom and started crying.

        I finally broke. I don't want to go on, I mean everything I care about is gone. Why does life suck? I mean, I'm famous, so life should be easy, but it isn't. I get to go everyday with it just getting worse and worse. My head feels like a literal warzone and I can't do anything about it. People keep posting about the fight though. turns out Markiplier switched sides! Wow!

       But no one, not a single person, has even asked if I'm okay. Oli hasn't even noticed it. He's been with me through all of it, yet he seems to not notice how terribly it impacts me. I have lost almost everything, but I honestly just want to talk to someone, anyone. I know other people go through this, so why haven't they told me how it will end? Please, for the love of everything good, let this have a happy ending. 

       thirty three, I want some tea