The First Girl I Loved

#4

Stacy's POV

"Goodnight, baby. See you" he kissed me passionately and I didn't hesitate to reciprocate. His kisses felt weird and I don't know why.

"I love you," he whispered underneath his breath

"I love you, too. Goodnight"

"You sure you don't want me to stay tonight?" he asked seductively

"As much as I wanted you to stay, I need some time alone. I feel overwhelmed and exhausted honestly. I'm sorry Sean," I answered genuinely

"Okay I was just kidding baby," he flashes his perfect smile with full concern and understanding.

"Nope, you're not. I know you," I smirked at him

He laughed and folded his arms around my waist.

"What if I'm not kidding?"

I raised my brow and was about to punch his shoulder when he held my wrist and pinned me to my hotel door

"Sean?" I said almost a whisper

"Hmm?" he asked innocently

"What are you doing?"

"Nothing much, why?" he said casually

"Sean, I don't wanna--ugh,"

I can't help but let out a moan when he kissed my neck. I put my hands around his neck and he started adding more pressure. He sucked my neck and his hands were slowly moving down my hips. I lowered my head to meet his hungry lips. I put my hands on his chest down to his hard stomach.

Why do I feel weird and confused?! I shouldn't be thinking this way.

It's been 2 weeks since Lucy left the country, and I've been doing my best to be a good girlfriend to Sean.

I was surprised when he suddenly stopped kissing me. I looked at him and saw his eyes closed. We're both panting at the moment. He rested his forehead on mine.

"I-i'm sorry Stacy. I didn't mean to do that. You know I respect you a lot. If we'll do 'that', I want it to be special. I know you're tired. So you better get inside and rest. Alright? I'm really sorr-"

"Shh. It's alright Sean. I hope I didn't spoil your night. I'm just really not in the mood--"

"Shut. up. You didn't spoil my night babe, okay? You better get your tiny self inside. It's getting late now. Plus you didn't even let me in you're hotel room. That's so rude you know! I'm the guest here."

"Yeah, says the one who suddenly attacked me--"

"No, don't say it," he covered his face and I can't help but laugh because he looks really embarrassed.

I hugged him and removed his hands off his face, "I love you, see you too," he kissed the tip of my nose and my forehead before he finally left.

I went to the bathroom to take a very long shower. I needed it because it's very hot here in Manila.

"I fucking missed you"

I immediately opened my eyes. I don't know but I think I heard Lucy's voice.

I think I'm going crazy anytime now, so I decided to finish quickly.

I wore a plain long white shirt and a very short shorts.

I immediately threw myself in the bed and remembered to check my phone. I saw a voice mail from Sean, so I opened it.

"Hi babe! I just wanted to say goodnight, but it looks like you're already asleep. You better kiss me tomorrow! Sleep well babe.. and I love you! See you tomorrow."

I smiled contently at my boyfriend's message. Such a jerk. I checked my contact and I saw Lucy's. I saw her contact photo. I pressed her name and saw her picture much clearer.

I sighed at the thought that I will not see her for months or for years maybe. We'll never know.

I yawned and I took a last look at her picture before I finally drifted off to sleep.