Fallen For A Player

Chapter 19 - Santa Will Not Be Coming to My Town

I laid on my bed with the quilt over my head to surround myself with the darkest environment as possible. I was feeling so restless at the moment, I wanted bury myself inside my bed for eternity.

"He is trying to quit smoking for you." Erick's words fluttered inside my brain, giving me goosebumps every single time. I was thankful to Erick for disclosing this after Dan and Alec took Ryan away from me this evening but at the same time, I was enraged at Ryan for not telling me this himself in the first place.

I was angry. Angry that he had not listened to me. That he had ignored my warning and that he had broken the promise and now he'll through hell yet on the other hand I was glad that he was trying and that too because of me, that he had decided to go in to hell just for me.

I tried to keep calm. There was only one thing I wanted to do right now and I wasn't sure if doing it would be right. The time isn't the best, Jen. But I couldn't see any other option and I so badly wanted to get this over with.

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Oh. My. God. I can't believe I'm actually doing this.

I stuffed my hands in my pockets and buried my chin under the soft material of my jacket. It was starting to get extremely cold and I was in such a hurry that I had forgotten to wear something warm. So in a hurry, I wore a pair of denim jeans, a black shirt and a black jacket.

On my way to the park, I asked myself a couple more times if what I was doing was right, I asked myself if I should stop, turn around and head back home but the other part of my brain wanted answers right as of now and it wanted to see him as well.

As I reached the park, I heard Dan shout. He was yelling enthusuatically and I wondered what was going there. I increased my pace and a thought hit me. When I came here the first time, I was so shy to go up to them thinking that they were gangsters. Now, knowing who they were I can easily go up to them, talk to them. Those earrings and weird hairstyles can easily fool people.

"Jen?" Dan said in half shock. Erick turned around, his eye brows furrowed together and Alec just shifted to the side to check if I really was here. Either way, I could tell they were not expecting me to be here, trust me I wasn't either. It took a lot of courage to get myself out of the house and now that I'm out, I'm going to finish what I came out for.

Erick walked up to me, a skateboard held in his hands. "Why are you here? Is everything alright?" He asked and I saw the worry in his eyes appear. His gangster side was covered by his brother side.

"You know the answer to that, Erick. Where is Ryan?" My feral self was starting to turn up.

"He's not here." Dan said. "He's at home." Dan said and I saw a smile appear on them all.

"What happened?" I asked out of curiosity. "Go to his home and ask him why he wasn't here." Erick said in humor.

"What?" I asked absentmindedly. Isn't he supposed to be here? He told me himself that he had been with them for the past few days.

"Wasn't he with you yesterday?" I asked and Erick paused for a few seconds. I watched Erick debate with himself as he tried to come up with the answer Ryan  wanted him to say but Alec detected the long pause and replied on behalf of him. "No." Erick gave me a weak, apologetic smile.

I clenched my fist. Alright. Ryan is so dead.

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I cannot believe I'm doing this. I have never been this kind of girl and I'm still not but I have never felt so much like a brat in my entire life. It is true when people say that love makes people do things they don't want to do.