Fallen For A Player

Chapter 24 - Crashing Down

Jen's POV:

I have always believed in the concept of "oposites atttact". Lovers with different and difficult personalities, such stories always fascinated me, how the partners would overcome their other halve's repelling personalities and finally accept eachother as they are.

Mine and Ryan's relationship is somewhat similar as well. We are like yin-and-yang. Black and white. Maybe that is why I got attracted to him. He was a charmer and I was simply a girl who had a puppy love on someone else. He is lively, looking darn dashing while doing all his impressive stunts with his skateboard and his backflips and I am just a bookworn whose life had no thrill until the day I met him.

A yin-yang relationship is always beautiful, well atleast at first, but of course problems arise and personalites clash or worse, both lovers come crashing down into an endless pit.

I heaved a huge sigh before looking back at my textbook and telling myself to stop thinking about him. I have been sitting in the exact spot on my bed for the past hour, trying to revise for the upcoming Exam but was only being distracted by thoughts of Ryan. I looked at my phone on the side table.

Don't Jen. Do not check your phone.

But who was I kidding? Against my better judgement, I reached for my phone and checked for any cheeky messages or missed calls from Ryan. I placed my phone back on the table, disappointed.

It has been two days and Ryan has not spoken to me. He sits right behind me in class, he walks right past me countless times and eventhough I can feel his presence and his gaze on me, I was just too irritated, and of course too stubborn, those days to initate the conversion and fix this dilemma of ours.

What is it with boys hiding stuff? I only ask of him to be honest. That's it. Is it too hard?

The door to my room flung open out of the blue and made me jump. I looked up to see Silver standing at the doorway with a weird grin.

"I'm studying." I told her before she could start blabbering about crap I don't care about and make me even more annoyed.

"I met Alec today." She walked up to me slowly, her hands now behind her. I placed my pen on my book and asked "Did you even hear what I said?"

"It was our second official date." She looked up and I noticed her bright smile. Great, now she has tuned me out.

"He's different, Jen." Silver exclaimed as she sat on my bed. I placed my book on the bed and hugged my knees as I watched her in awe. It was like watching an alien for the first time. I have never seen her with such an expression. It was a mix of pure happiness and . . . shyness?

"He doesn't talk much, he is quiet, very quiet and straightforward as well." She smiled to herself and lightly shook her head as if she was going insane. Then she looked at me. "You know we didn't do it."

"Silver!" I yelled in disgust. Imagining her "doing it" was the last thing I wanted on my mind.

"Hear me out! Usually, guys would start the", she looked at me knowing how uneasy this topic makes me feel. "the thing." she continued. Thank God.

"But today we just kissed. We didn't do it. He didn't even try. It was just deep conversation and passionate kissing." She looked at me, her eyes all sparkly. "Good for you?" I couldn't understand her delight.

"Forget it. You won't understand. Anyways, what's up with you and Ryan? Heard something happened, again." She changed the topic and looked at me skeptically. "Nothing happened." I muttered as I focused back onto my textbook.

"Oh geez! What are you? Ten?" She asked in utter annoyance. "You guys fight like freaking babies! You know what, you guys should either patch things up or just not be together."

I looked at her in shock. How could she say that? Do I not want us to be together? Of course not!

"But he lied to me."

"Oh boo-hoo, he lied. Guess what, people do that and he isn't the only one. You lied too. Then how does that make you any different from him?" She half-yelled and then sighed to cool off her irritation.

"But you know what? This is none of my business." She said and made her way out of my room and made me contemplate my priorities in life; my ego or Ryan.
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Ryan's POV:

I got out my car and slammed the door close. I breathed out the cold air and tried to remain calm.

Maybe it wasn't a good idea to come to school? Maybe I should have stayed at home.

I pulled out my mobile as I entered the school and checked for any messages or calls from Jen, but there weren't any. It's been three days since I have talked to her, there freaking days! How can she not talk to me? Why do I always have to be the one to fix the problem?

I shoved the phone back into my pocket as I walked past the canteen. Maybe it's good she didn't call. Maybe it would make things easier, maybe it would hurt less.

I absentmindedly turned around the corner saw a tiny figure leaning on the lockers. I looked up to see Jen staring at the floor. She suddenly perked up and looked at me, a beam of hope in her eyes. I could feel my heart pick up it's beat but I continued walking nonetheless and hoped for Jen not to God damn talk to me.

Don't say anything, Jen. Please don't try to fix this.

"Ryan." Jen called out before I could walk past her. I stopped and she walked up to me. I looked at her and realized how I missed standing this close to her and being able to look directly into her chocolate brown eyes. She looked at me, her eyes danced over my face before she said what I was not wanting to hear.

"I'm sorry about that day." She paused and I watched her face flush in embarassment. "I shouldn't have said all that stuff." She held my hands, our cold fingers entwined between eachother's and in came the sudden rush of warmth. "It was silly, our fight. I can't believe I got mad over such a stupid thing."

"Jen, it's alright." I said but a lump formed in my throat. I watched her as the ends of her lips curled in a smile and as her eyes enliven. "Promise me that we will not argue again." She said softly as she started to play with my fingers.

"I promise." I tightened my grip on her hands.

"And if we have these stupid arguments again, you'll tell me that 'Jen, this is stupid, you're stupid.'"

"I will." I gave her a smile and she gave me a smile.

"Alright. I have to go and meet the girls. I'll see you later?"

"Yeah." I answered as I let go of her hands. She stood on her toes to give me a quick kiss before hurrying out of my sight.

I shoved my hands back into my pockets when it felt cold once again and tried to remember the wonderful sensation of her lips on mine. Without her even knowing, maybe this might be our last kiss.