Moments Interlinking With The Past

Chapter 20

Tris P.O.V
It's been a week since Haze's death. I and Gus are still surrounded in grief. To hide the truth of how she died from everyone we both told them that her lungs were filled with water and that we were too late to save her.

Today, Christina takes me to shopping to cheer me up, but that's not going to happen. She bought clothes and then we both went to the food court.

During this whole time I kept thinking what shall be my next move?

I kept choosing between starting a new life with Tobias or seeking revenge. I don't know what suits me?

"Hey," Christina snaps her fingers and I came back to reality. "What were you thinking?"

"Yeah," I gave her a small smile. "Nothing."

"Oh! Daydreming then?"

"You can say that. Christina, thankyou for asking me out to shop, but I think I should go." I said getting up from my chair.

"Take care and meet me again with a smile," she gave me a tight hug.

"Christina........can't breathe." She pulls away and I went home.

At home, I went into Haze's room and lied on her bed and closed my eyes. "Tris! Wake up, sleepy head." It was a familiar voice. Haze's voice. "Haze you came back." I said hugging her. "Where did I went I was always hear," she pointed at my heart. I opened my eyes which were filled with tears and I left them to flow.

I wanted to throw something I picked the pillow from her bed and to my dismay found a diary. Haze's diary.

I opened it. All the entries started when we arrived in Dauntless Sector and ended before we left for the vacation. Her last entry was:

Dear Tris,
I know that you will find this diary after I die or I will give it to you after the vacation. You must be thinking how I know that I will die, well David told me about the consignment a week ago, I knew that I will die protecting you, my best friend.
I wrote this entry to tell you that never take that chip from your arm, well now I sound like a parent. It's for your own safety as there will be no one after me to protect you.
Nevertheless, I also wanted to tell you that if you are curious, which you are! And want to know whose names I feeded in the chip their information is in my laptop. Feel free to check.
I think I must end my entry, because it is becoming a little bit emotional. Lastly, I wanted to tell you that if I die you don't have to be in grief for too long, just start your own life marry Four and start a family.
I must end now, if I am beside you hug me for being a great friend if not I am sorry for breaking your promise and don't start crying.
Yours faithful friend,
Hazel.

"Why?! Hazel, why?! You knew and you didn't tell me, why?! You said not to cry but sorry my friend it's hard not to cry when you are not here to confront me." I whispered and sobbed. I held the diary against my chest and slept.

"Hey, Tris," Haze said. "Hi" I gave her a sad smile. "Why are you sad?" Haze said looking in my eyes. "Because you are not here," I said angrily. "I know, but for how long will you stay like this?" She said touching my face. "I don't know." I said. "As I told you in my diary you have to move on." She said. I looked at her in shock. "I am not saying to forget me I am just saying enjoy your life. As time moves fast." She said. "Time is a bitch! She always leaves me behind. She took everyone I loved, everyone! Even you." I shouted. "No, Four is still left. Spend time with him 'cause time moves fast to remind life is too short. You still have Four go and spend your life with him or else before you know it he will also disappear. Do you want that?" She said. I shook my head 'no'. "Then, go! What are you waiting for? Go!" She yelled.

I opened my eyes. What she said is right I don't want Four to leave me. I have to go. I have to. With this I went to Four's house.

I knocked. He opened the door and said,"Hi."

"Hey," I said hugging him.

"What brought you in my humble home?" He said letting me in.

"Can I move in with you?" He crosses his arms. "It's because as Haze died and I don't want to live alone."

He walks to me, puts his hand in my hair and said, "Of course." With a smile.

"Really," he nods a smile appears on my face. "Thank you." And we both kissed.

I pulled away and said, "Okay, tomorrow can you help me pack?"

"Sure. Now go home and take rest." He said.

"Yeah I will. Bye." I waved my hand and went home.

I slept in Haze's room. And a dream came:

"I did what you told me to do. Now what will I do next?" I said asking her. "Marry him." She said. "What?" I said laughing,"you are joking, right". She gave me the serious look. "Wait," I stopped laughing, "you are not". She shook her head. "How can I marry him, I am too young." I said. "Really you are going to be 18 this year and he is also 18. You both are adults." She said. "20" I whispered. "What do you mean by 20?" She gave me a confused look. "He is 20." I said she opened her mouth to say something but I started, "Now you will ask how he is in the same class as me? Well he is because he failed 10th standard twice due to that he had to repeat 10. This made us even". "Oh! Still you both are adults you can marry him," she said. "I will think over it," I said. "And yeah before I leave you can donate my clothes to charity." She said. "Yeah I will. Bye." I said hugging her. "Bye" she said before disappearing into the bright light.

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Author's Note:
Well Haze told Tris to move on with her life. Do you think that her new life will be better than the last one?