Divergent high

Chapter 31

Tris's POV

  I stare at Justin in shock.

  "Your joking right?" Zeke asks in alarm. Justin looks down at the floor then back at us with tears glistening in his eyes.

  "I wish I was." Suddenly I can't feel my legs. I fall to the floor and start crying. Harder than I ever have in my entire life. There are footsteps coming towards the room. I lift my head up and Hannah appears by the door.

  "Why is everyone crying?" She asks. I look around and realize that she is correct. Everyone has red eyes and are crying.

  "Hannah, To-" Justin starts but chokes on his words. She looks at him confused and looks next to him at Tobias's bed where his body lays.

  "Toby?" She asks his body but obviously he doesn't reply

  "Toby, are you ok?" Still no reply

   "Toby!!! Answer me! Why isn't he answering me!?" She asks worried

  "H-he-is-de-dead Hannah." Justin says once again chocking on his words. I cringe at the word dead making more tears fall freely from my eyes. She looks at him then back at Tobias. She falls ontop of his body sobbing. This breaks my heart even more. I just wish that he saw how many people actually do care about him. He kept on listening to Marcus thinking that no one does or will ever love him which just pushed him to turn himself in, but really we were all hurt in the process.

  He's gone. He's gone. He's gone. I'm never going to feel his body against mine, never feel his kisses again, never hear his voice again. The thoughts push deeper and deeper into my heart. I start crying harder and harder after every thought. I curl up into a ball on the floor and run out of tears to cry out so I just sit there gasping. He's gone.

  I look up and let's just say that was a mistake. Justin and Hannah are next to Tobias's body crying. His body. His cold, dead, body. He's still covered in the blood from Eric and Peter. I quickly look away. I can't see him like this. I look over at my friends. Once again a mistake. They are all sitting there crying but mostly Zeke and Uriah. The two strongest people besides Tobias that I know, crying. Crying over their dead best friend, their so called 'brother'. Crying that they will never again here his jokes, never again be able to act like 5 year olds with him.

  I need to stop crying. It's what he wants. He wants all of us to go on with our lives. Remember him, but not grieve him. How can I? He doesn't know how difficult it is. The love of my life. Gone. Forver. We said we were going to be together forever. 

  "So what happened exactly?" Justin finally speaks up his eyes are red from crying and he is holding Hannah in his lap who is silently vrying into his chest. When he talks his voice is all scratchy and depressing.

   "It's a long story for another time." Uriah says quietly.

   "Does it have something to do that has to involve saving you guys?" Justin asks.

   "How do you know?" Zeke asks

  "He came up to me asking me what to do. He didn't tell me anything about what ever it was and I obviously didn't know that he was going to get himself killed or else I would've given him some different advice." Justin says clearly feeling guilty.

  "Justin you didn't convince gim to go, it was himself." Shuana says

  "Even if you told him something else then he still would've gone." Lynn says

  "Who would kill him?" He asks

  "Like Uriah said they will explain later." Will says

  "This probably wouldn't help to tell you right now." Marlene says

  "I'm sorry I just want to know what happened to my little brother and kill that jerk that killed him."

  "As do we and just to clarify its jerks. there was more than one person." Christina says

  "Why did he just waste his life?" Justin asks quietly. This time I speak up which catches everyone by surprise.

  "He didn't waste it. He was brave enough to give his life to save the people that he loves. He was aware of the consiquences but he could take it if it means his friends as well as you and Hannah are safe." When I speak my voice is hoarse and dry making it hurt when I talk. Once again silence fills the room, everyone deep in depressing thoughts. My eyes once again are like a waterfall spilling out so much water. I slowly stand up and make my way over to Tobias's bed where he lays. I sit down on the edge of it and stare at his body. I feel everyone's eyes on me but I don't care. I just keep my eyes ahead of me on Tobias. My Tobias.

   I slowly touch his face but quickly pull back when I feel his ice cold skin. Tears threaten to pour out for a while I fight them back but then give up, that's when everything bursts out of me. I start screaming out from the pain. The pain in my heart. I shakily get off the bed, I can't be near or see his body. I slowly slide down the wall in the corner of his room. I pull myself closer in the corner praying that all of this pain will stop. 

  "Tris look at me." A voice says in front of me but I'm to out of it to comprehend who it is. I shake my head franticly and push my self closer into the wall.

  "Tris, we need to take his body away. We are going to leave so you can say goodbye to him before they- they take him away." I can finally tell that this is Lynn talking to me. I hear slow shuffling and a door cloring. I slowly look up and notice everyone is gone. It's just me and Tobias. I slowly get up and walk over to his body.

  "Hey Toby. I can't believe you are really gone. It hurts me to think that you won't be here to hold me, to kiss me. You are the love of my life I know you want me to but I will never love anyone else. My heart is yours and yours only even if you aren't here. You know even if you are- de- dead your still look really hot. I'm not just losing my one true love, but I'm also losing my bestfriend. You are-were someone I could tell everything to. I love you more than words can describe. My love for you wouldn't even fill up space. Goodbye Tobias." I whisper the last part and slowly lean down and kiss his cheek. I get up and walk out the door.

  When I open the door I see everyone's ears on the door with tears in their eyes. Normally I would yell at them but right now I don't care. I let out a shaky breath. Christina runs up and hugs me rubbing circles on my back.

  "I can't believe he's gone." I whisper

  "I know Tris, I know." She whispers back. Zeke and Uriah slowly walk back into the room to say their last words. While we sit in the hall, no one speaking. The only sound are Hannah's crys and Justin's comforting.

  "Guys come here!" Zeke shouts.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*

A/N: I'm sorry! I know another cliffhanger! I just can't help it! I don't blame you if you hate me because I hate myself as well for doing this. Everyone was POed with my last chapter. Sorry about that! Literally the entire time while writing this I was listening to Kiss me by Ed Sheeran. I'm listening to  it right now. It just seems like such a Fourtris song. Who else agrees with me? If you haven't listened to it before you should because its such a pretty song!! Anyways I will try and update soon!

  Thank you so much for reading!! I love you all so much!!!