Beyond the Stars *Dark Louis Tomlinson*

Chapter 15

Hello once again, everyone! Oh, my poor Larry heart. Get ready to feel. Just realized that I named Adeline's boyfriend Andrew Garfield, a.k.a. Spiderman. Oh well. At least he's cute, haha. Please keep sharing and commenting, I really do love your opinions and just comments. I'd highly appreciate it, thanks :) -Erin xx

Louis practically jumps out of the car once we park. The small cemetery is hidden from society. Only a few headstones stand. Around us are trees as far as the eye can see. Gloomy grey clouds peak through the dead leaves and bare scraggly branches. No one knows this place is here except for the people who have loved ones buried here. It's beautiful and smells of pine instead of death and dirt. I can hear the wind chimes in the distance when a cold breeze picks up. I'd love to be buried here.

Louis finds Harry's grave in an instant. It's like they're still connected. I know the feeling. Many times I can still feel Andrew with me. I walk over to Louis who has fallen to his knees. He buries his head in his hands, fighting off tears. Then he begins screaming, disturbing the peace of this small vicinity. He calls out Harry's name, apologizing madly. Reminds me of when I saw Andrew laying so still in his coffin. I never want to see him like that ever again. 

Tears of bitter understanding spill out of my eyes. I tangle my fingers in Louis' messy hair. He stops screaming and retreats to sobbing into my waist. I wrap my arms around his shoulders, rubbing soothing circles into them. It dawns upon me that Louis never got to grieve properly. He had no contact with Anne and Harry's older sister. He never got to visit Harry when the world became so small it was hard to breathe. He never got to fully say goodbye to the boy he loved. Then Eleanor left him on his own. And that's not right.

"It's all my fault he's dead," Louis accuses miserably. "If I had just left earlier or told him the truth. If I had picked him up at his place or stepped in front of the goddamn bullet, he would be alive and happy."

"And if you had died instead of him then he would be left with this pain," I retort. "It was a messed up situation in general. But you got Derin. He can't kill again and make someone else's life a living hell. You did a good thing."

"Then why do I feel so miserable?" he asks sadly.

"Because some of the good things in life hurt the most. That's the downside of doing good things. They can be so painful, but it's for the best in the end. Trust me, I understand."

"Oh, really?" he scoffs. "You lost your boyfriend, too?"

I kneel in front of him. "You don't know me as well as you think you do. I moved here from Bristol. It's not that far away but it carries demons. My boyfriend is buried there, too. He had bone cancer."

"I'm so sorry, Adeline," he says. He looks at Harry's stone. "I held him in my arms as he died. He was looking at me and smiling. He died loved and loving."

"And that's all we can ask for when we die. Not everyone gets that opportunity. He's a lucky one."

He smiles lightly. "Yeah, he is. I still can't believe I even dated Eleanor. She would never do this for me. Thank you."

"Louis?" a female asks. We look up to see Anne. "It's been so long. How have you been doing?"

He shrugs. "Well enough," he answers bluntly. "How are you doing, Anne? Is Gemma with you?"

"Oh, no. Gemma's back in Doncaster. She doesn't know I'm here. I was just recently visiting a distant relative in the city. I was on my way back and had to see Harry again. Actually, I was grabbing some groceries to bring home when I bumped into your friend."

"Long time no see, Anne," I say.

She smiles. "You've got yourself a good girlfriend here, Lou. She's a real keeper," Anne says.