heartbreaker

chapter 7

"hey mom im home!!" i yell to her

no reply.

"mom?? are you here?" i ask nervously.
"hey jessica, mom isn't here.." Seth says "well where is she??" "she's out... with dad.."

what?!?

"what do you mean?!? we haven't talked to dad in a year and a half.." i say almost about to cry. "he called her and she sounded really worried.. she left about forty five minutes ago."

worried? why would she be worried? is dad okay..? well.. why do i even care? he left us. he's one of the many reasons why i have depression. but at the same time, he still his my dad. my brother and him have a strong relationship so he isn't sad about him leaving as much as i am.

"what do you think happened?" i asked seth. "i have no clue.." he saw me about to cry "hey come here." he says with his arms open "im sorry.. it's just a very touchy topic for me" i say while crying into his arms.

"hey.. i love you." he says looking at me
"i love you too.. thanks for always being here for me." i say while wiping my tears away.

i go upstairs. i wanna text Sam

'hey sam, it's jessica(:' i send it. there is no going back.. oh my gosh should i have said something else??

all the thoughts are going into my head. i am way too stressed to do anything. i go downstairs to take some medicine.

i hear the door open.
"mom?!" i run to the door "hey sweetie." she sounds upset. "why were you with dad.?" i say rude. "i know you are probably really, really confused" i stop her

"mom we are in this together. you promised you would never go back.." i say while holding in my tears.

"no honey, it's nothing like that! your father.." i stop her again.

"he's not my father. don't call him that."

"sorry. he is very sick.. he's in the hospital." she says

hospital? he used to drink all the time. that's one of the many reasons why he left. i wonder if that's why.

"is it because or his drinking?" i asked, scared or the answer.

"yeah.." she looks down. "mom.. im sorry. come give me a hug." she hugs me tight.

"he'll be okay." i say not really sure if that's true. i just don't want my mom upset more then she already is. as much as I hate my.. whatever you wanna call him. im always gonna be here for my mom. no matter what it is. she's my other half.

"your phone just rang" she said breaking the silence. "ill get that later" i said even though I could run upstairs faster then anyone ever has
"it seems kind of important to you" she says

"well uhm..." i say blushing. "well what are you doing standing here with your mom? go check it!!!"

"thank you mom! love you!" i run upstairs

sam<3: hey jessica!(: do you maybe wanna hang out..?(:
i send: yeah!! what time?(:

a few minutes pass
sam<3: 5:30?(:

it's only 4:14

me: yeah(: where do you wanna hang out??

i go downstairs to ask my mom.

"hey mom.. i know this is really weird but do think i can hang out with this guy at 5:30..?" i ask nervously

"ohhh. well who's this guy?" she asks

"his name is sam." i smile like an idiot.