heartbreaker

chapter 23

i walk inside to see seth eating food. i haven't talked to him really since i yelled at him. i shouldn't feel bad, but i do. he's always been here for me and lately i haven't been showing how grateful i am. i mean yeah it does make me upset that he still talks to.. whatever you wanna call him. but it's his decision and if he wants to hang out with him, he can.

"hey seth.." i say

"hey jessica.." he says back

"can i" we both say at the same time and and then laugh.

"you go first." seth says

"seth, im so sorry. i didn't mean to snap at you like i did. he just makes me so mad talking about it and then i loose it. you've been here for me through every single thing and i yelled at you when you came to help me. and i can't tell you how sorry i am that i did that. do you forgive me?" i ask him.

"i was never mad at you! if anyone should be mad, you should still be. i do hang out with dad a lot and i shouldn't have when that was happening. and I shouldn't have judged justin right then, because i don't know him or what he's been through. he doesn't seem like a bad guy." he says

"no, no. i don't want you blaming yourself for not being here when it happened, it's been happening for longer then just that day.. and yeah, justin is special." i smile

"what exactly happened with sam and tracy?" he asks

"well basically the whole time i liked him they had a thing and we were science partners and i came over there about twice and he kept texting this girl and i thought it was his ex because she kept calling him. and everyday tracy hung out with us less, didn't sound as happy on text, didn't hug me the same. so one day i was with hunter and carrie wondering where she was but carrie said that justin was looking for me so i went to look for him also and then i heard someone say "you're so cute tracy." and i saw tracy and sam making out.. i couldn't take it so i ran away crying and i couldn't breath and i fell down and justin carried me and that's all i remember." i say taking a breath.

just thinking about it works me up.

"that's terrible jessica.. you should not be put through that. come here" he hugs me tight. "you seem happy though." he says

"it's justin. he helps me a lot. he just took me on a date." i say while smiling uncontrollably.

"he did? where did he take you?" he asks

"a amusement park. that's why i have this big bear, if that's why you were wondering why i had it!" i say while laughing

"you really like this boy, don't you?" he asks.

"yeah seth.. i really do." i smile

"and you don't think he would hurt you?" he said worriedly

"well im not sure about that.. but i don't think he would hurt my as much as sam and tracy would." i say

"okay, well go upstairs and get some rest. i love you. goodnight." he says while hugging me

"goodnight, i love you too." i hug him back.

i go upstairs and look a my phone hoping that i have a text from justin. it says i have two messages

justin💋: i had a really nice time, thanks for skipping 7th period to hang out with me(: i hope you sleep well, goodnight😘

me: i had a nice time too!(: goodnight justin😊

i had another message.. it's from tracy.

tracy😒😷: hey..

im sure the last thing you wanna do is talk to me, but i can't express enough how sorry i am jess. i didn't mean to hurt you the way i did.. i was stupid and i had a crush but i didn't do anything to stop it. and i didn't think starting anything with sam would have me loose my best friend in the whole entire world. but i ask carrie, hunter, justin, your mom and everyone how you're doing. they always ignore me and walk away. so i am not sure if you're okay or anything. hopefully you are. jess im.. im so sorry😭 i just hate this fighting. we said we would be friends forever and loosing you has been the worst thing ive ever experienced. is there anything i can do to have you back? ill do anything..

i hope you have a great night and i hope you answer this.. i love you jess.❤️

really.? she hates the fighting?? then why would she start this crap in the first place?! she didn't even say anything about breaking it off with sam.

i decide to keep the message so i can show hunter, carrie and skylar. i put on my pj's on, get in bed and fall asleep while thinking of justin.

THE NEXT DAY

it's raining so i decide to put on my amercan eagle sweatshirt, black leggings and my galaxy vans.

i was running really late so i walk downstairs and see hunter waiting for me.

"hey hunter, im so sorry im late!!" i say

"don't worry about it!" he says "so how did your date with justin go?" he gives me a smirk.

"how did you know about that??" i question.

"everyone knows about it!" he says

"what?? how??" i ask

i don't mind people knowing about us, but we aren't dating.. he just took me on one date.

"people must have seen you two at the date." he says

"im sorry hunter.. but remember i said i would always be here." he is probably still upset because he's afraid im gonna say he's the only guy i care about.

"i believe you! and i see how much happier you are. he makes you happy, doesn't he?" he asks

"he really does." i say while smiling.

"okay, well let's get to school!" he says

i get to the car and see someone in te front seat, it's carrie!! i move to the back and see skylar!

"hey guys!" i say

"heyyy!" skylar and carrie say at the same time

"carrie you're actually ready on time?" i say while laughing

"hey!" she says

"and skylar, im really happy you're here!" i say while hugging her

"me too." she's smiles and hugs me back.