I fell for you when I wasn't meant to [Joavin] {Completed}

Chapter 4

(AN: this chapter contains self harm so you may skip it if you want to)

Joaquin POV
I hate not being able to see him. Since that night two weeks ago, we have been forbidden to see each other. I can't handle it. We still text and call each other, in fact we can be on the phone to each other and not get bored

Its not the sane though, I want to see him, I need to see him. I can tell he's changed and I'm worried. I don't know if he's changed for the better or the worst

But tonight that's gonna change. Sheriff Keller is going to New York and he's gonna stay there for a week

8 pm. Half an hour until the silver haired man leaves the Keller house for a week

I change and start to drive to the north side. I reach the house of my beautiful boyfriend and see the sheriff had already left

I go around the back and start to throw stones at Kevin's window until he opens it

I pull up a ladder to the window and climb it until I reach his window. Until I reach him

I climb in eagerly and kiss him passionately and push him on the bed not bothering to stop or talk. I put my hands up his shirt and touch what feels like a cut which makes him flinch and push me off

He sits ar the end off the bed, facing away from me

I cup his cheek "are you okay?" I'm worried about him

"Ye..yeah" he says softly and looks at my lips "but I need to show you something, your the only one I can trust..."

He takes his shirt off and reveals the word 'useless' engraved into his skin

I feel like crying "why?.... Who?...." I could barley speak and I pull him into a hug, tears falling from my eyes

"Please don't cry" he said, looking up at me "I hate it". He kissed my lips softly while still in the hug

He broke off. " my dad, he keeps calling me useless about what happened, he also says he wishes I was the better, straight son he always wanted..."

I started crying

"Please don't" he whispered and held me close to him and his heart "you can stay here all week until my dad comes back, okay?"

I nodded softy holding onto him tightly

Kevin POV
I've never seen a snake cry before and its killing me to see this one cry

I'm trying not to cry, I'm trying to stat strong for him. I kiss his head and sing ' sweater weather ' to him and he starts to calm down

"Do you want some hot coco?" I say softly to him. He nods and takes his jacket off

"Can you put a bit off chilli in mine?" He asked with puppy dog eyes and pecked me on the cheek

"Okay baby boy, just lay down" I watch him take his trousers off and he's lays down "I'll bring up some chocolate cake as well"

God, even when he had red, puffy eyes and tear marks down his face he's still cute