VanossGaming Crew One-Shots

Mark-Video Chatting

I hope this one doesn't suck😅BTW sorry for that last crappy chapter so here is this one
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"Hey Y/n how's it going?" Mark says though the laptop screen. "It's been going you know." I say casually.

"Well that's good to hear. I was wondering since I don't have anything planned we could stay here and chat." Mark says.

Inside I felt almost disappointed. On the outside I showed a frown. "Mark...I told you I had plans." I say, lying.

"You did? I don't recall...but then again I have a horrible memory...it's okay. I love you...have a nice day." Mark says.

I wave and end the call. This was very stressful. I loved him but it hurts when you realize you've never physically met him face in the real world.

Sure we video chat and I know I'm not getting catfished but still. It still makes my heart sink sometimes.

I mean...what could I do. He lived in LA and I live somewhere else. Far away. I could at least do something to take my mind off of him.

I grab my keys and head to my car. If there was anything that made me happy, it was food.

I went to whatever was close to me and got what I wanted. I then went to Starbucks just for a frappuccino.

I arrived home and ate what I got. Then when I was eating I got that nagging feeling again. Guilt.

I couldn't take it so I went to take a shower. I got out and got dressed and I opened my laptop.

I called Mark and he instantly picked up. "Mark! You answered." I say. "Of course I did. You're my favorite notification." He says.

Pang. There it goes. That was another strike of guilt. Here I am, video chatting my boyfriend. How long?

It's been 4 years that we've been together. 4 years of video chatting constantly. I sigh as I look away.

"Babe what's wrong?" Mark asks. "Do you...ever get that feeling that you just want to stop video chatting and physically go meet up in real life?" I ask.

"Is that...what you want?" He asks. I shyly nod. "I have thought about that sometimes. It creeps up on me sometimes." He says.

"Mark I want to meet up face to face and not face to laptop." I say. "I do too." Mark says. "I sigh.

"Mark...I think...that you need someone that lives in LA." I say. "What? No! Absolutely not!" Mark says.

"Mark we've been doing this for 4 years now! Aren't you tired of this?" I ask. "No I'm not! I'm never tired of you." Mark says.

"Mark just find someone else goddamnit! I'm tired of not being able to see you face to face!" I say.

He stays silent. "Mark I love you! Not my freaking laptop!" I say. "It's hard I know and I'm sorry." Mark says.

"Mark I've always wanted to be able to hug you and hang onto you when I'm sad! 4 years! Mark I need you physically!" I say.

"Mark I swear that I love you so much that I get ticked off when another guy gets close to me! But lately I've needed you so much!" I say.

"Baby I'm sorry I know this is not how you wanted things to go." Mark says. "I'll try. I've been working really hard these past fee days so maybe I can-"

At this point I burst into tears. "Mark! I need you! I'm tired of this! I just want a hug..." I say. "I know...I'm sorry...I have to go. I promise everything will be fine." Mark says.

He logs off and I'm left staring at a black screen. Who is that? That was me. That crying person was me.

The one with puffy eyes and a red nose was me. I was that person that I was afraid I would become.

I couldn't hold it in any longer. I let it all out. I cried and cried. I wanted a hug I wanted someone to hold me tight.

I wanted them to whisper sweet things to me. Not just any guy. I wanted Mark. The emotions I've kept bottled in where now coming out in a blur.

I had no idea I could produce more tears. But they came and all I could do was think about Mark.

The man I so desperately loved was far away from me. I've always dreamed of meeting him. I've dreamed of a future with him.

A future where we share a home with small children who we love dearly...a happy life.

But how is what we're living considered a happy life? That I don't know but it hurts. The one I love is far away...

Mark please just hold me...