Mágoa // Spencer Reid

Chapter 18

"The life of the dead is placed in the memory of the living."
Marcus Tullius Cicero

I woke up the morning after to a note on my coffee table:
Maria. I will be at the office, see you there.
Spencer.

I threw on some black pants and a navy blouse, I quickly made some coffee and I set off to work. When I arrived I quickly looked around for Spencer, when I didn't see him I knew something wasn't right. "Hey Emily where's Spence?" I quizzed her as soon as I spied her, "I think he is talking to Hotch," she replied I thanked her and sat down at my desk, "Williams!" I heard Hotch call from his office, I spun around on my chair, "yeah?" He gestured for me to go to his office. I walked into his office and spotted Spencer sat with his head in his hands, I looked at Hotch who gave me a sad stare, I sat next to Spencer placing a hand on his arm "what's wrong?" He looked up at me, his eyes filling with tears, "Zugzwang." He cried, "what?"

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"So Maeve is missing?" I asked, Spencer shook his head furiously, "no Maeve was taken." I was slightly taken back by his sudden outburst, "ok, Spence to find her we are going to need your help. You have spoken to her and written to her, she might've given some details away without either of you realising it." Hotch suggested that Spencer should talk to Emily, so she can pick out any information from the couple's communications.

"Maria, come see this!" Garcia hollered, I followed her to the bat cave my heeled boots clicking as I walked, "Maeve was engaged." Garcia said, there were lots of pictures of a pretty brunette with a man, "is that Maeve?" I asked. I was stunned for a moment, she is so pretty, but she was engaged to someone. Does Spence know? Garcia and I went to find Reid, "Spencer, Maeve. She was engaged." The colour drained from his face, "Rossi, Morgan and I will go and see the ex-fiance." Hotch stated the three began heading to the door, Spencer began following them "I'm coming too!"

While the guys were checking out Maeve's ex-fiance, JJ, Garcia, Prentiss and I began searching through the life of Dr Maeve Donovan, Morgan sent over some pictures that the stalker had sent to Bobby, Maeve's fiance. We printed them and began examining each image for a clue or something that would help us find her, "Maria look at this," JJ said quietly looking up from a picture of Maeve and Bobby, her face was completely scribbled out in black "so the stalker hates Maeve?" I say slightly confused, "no - well yes, but what I'm looking at is what the stalker used, it looks like eyeliner, which would mean that-" she spoke but I interrupted her, "the unsub is a woman."

When the guys returned JJ and I scanned the images to see if it was eyeliner that the unsub used, "Reid, the unsub is a woman." we worked tirelessly before discovering the identity of our unsub. Diane Turner.  Who just so happens to be Bobby's girlfriend, we all ran to the SUVs to go back to the apartment the guys had been at a few hours ago. When we arrived there were obvious signs of a struggle, we are too late.

When we were at the apartment Spencer noticed a camera, he offered himself for Maeve, a trade. Hotch questioned it, knowing Spencer's judgement is clearly clouded. I let out a sigh of defeat as we pulled up outside the abandoned warehouse, Hotch can't let Spencer go in unarmed. Spencer ripped off his FBI vest and handed his gun to Hotch, "Reid!" Morgan called, Spencer didn't look back as he entered the building.

We all stood around outside waiting desperately for a sign to go in, nobody spoke simply because there are no words, Spencer Reid is currently trying to negotiate with his soulmate's stalker to save her life.

BANG  the single gunshot was enough of a signal for us to enter, I tried to move my feet but I couldn't move, my breath hitched and my vision blurred. I felt something warm run down my cheek, I wiped it off and snapped myself out of the daydream or whatever it was causing me to freeze and I sprinted to catch up to the rest of the team. We all stood completely still with our guns trained on Diane, she had Maeve at gunpoint and nobody could get a clean shot.

"Would you do that? Would you kill yourself for her?" Diane asked Reid who was sat of the floor, he didn't even hesitate before replying "yes." There was a pause, "Thomas Merton." A quiet voice said, I turned my attention from Spencer to Maeve, who I had not really looked at properly, her cheeks were soaked in tears, "Who's Thomas Merton?" Diane yelled, tears streaming down her face "He knows." Maeve sobbed, "Who is Thomas Merton? Who is he?!" Diane cried, "He's the one thing you can never take away from us." Maeve replied, Diane moved the gun from Maeve's head to her own, "WAIT!" Spence yelled.

BANG!

Both Maeve and Diane's bodies fell to the floor, Reid sat sobbing and nobody knew what to do. I slowly walked closer to him, I place a hand on his shoulder and he wrapped his arms around my legs I gently removed them and squatted next to him pulling him into a hug. He sobbed into my shoulder for what felt like a lifetime, every now and again I felt a tear escape from my own eyes.

Morgan took Spencer home, I wanted to take him but Morgan said  I was too emotional. I understood but I still wanted Spence to know I am here for him. We returned to the office in silence, I got in the elevator with JJ my eyes pooling with tears, JJ stopped the elevator she pulled me into a hug, "you okay?" she asked, her eyes watering I shook my head, "If you can think of a reason, any reason at all why the universe is so screwed up and mean. Now would be a really good time to tell me because I need some answers. Spencer Reid is one of the purest people I have ever met and his world has just come crashing down and there is nothing I can to do fix it."

Spencer Walter Reid deserves better.

"Love is our true destiny. We do not find the meaning of life by ourselves alone - We find it with another" Thomas Merton