Anxiety vs normal

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"Dude this party is awesome" my best friend screams over the music almost falling over as I do the same considering we are both drunk
"I'll be back I need another drink" I say walking away before Alex, my cousin, grabs my hand
"Dont you think you've had enough?" He asks
"I'm fine I've had more than this before" I snatch my wrist away and walk into the kitchen. What I walking in I see a familiar girl kiss a very familiar guy. He pushes her off looking Pissed.
"I told you in not doing that with you anymore!" He screams at her showing his face. It's mikey
"Do you really love her? That's it? Ok then good bye dick" maddie says walking away. Just then my eyes met his and they softened. I roll my eyes and grab another shot drinking it. After that I grab a drink and turn to leave but he steps into my path way blocking it.
"I'm sorry baby." He sighs grabbing my waist
"Let go of me mikey" I wiggle but he doesn't let go
"No. You need to know that I was just jealous. I'm down with maddie. Your the only one I want." H whispers leaning down to my face but I then the other way and chug the drink I had.
"Look at me" he says grabbing my face bringing it back to his which is very close. "I'm sorry. I was an ass. I love you bre. I can't stand you being mad at me. I've drank a lot to night and smoked a lot. Just because I was mad at you for being mad at me."
"Your not drunk" I slur
"Trust me one more drink and I will be" he smiles. I turn and grab a drink and shove it into his arms.
"Then drink." I smirk. He shrugs and chugs it.
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About an hour later we are both drunk and on the dance floor.
I turn in his arms and grind my backside against him until I feel his bulge. Mikey leans his head into the crook of my neck leaving sweet kisses until he reaches my ear.
"Lets go upstairs" he slurs I just nod knowing we're this is going.
When we get into an empty room he pushes me on the bed while his lips find mine. I pull his closer to me if that is even possible. I started grinding my hips with his.
"Stop. I can wait. You don't want to loose your virginity and I understand that. "
I don't want to wait anymore." I confessed.
My fingers fiddled with the collar of his cotton blue shirt before I undid the top button. "Please." I begged, putting my lips on Mikey's . 
Mikey closed his eyes, kissed me back and then took a deep breath, trying to control himself. "Are you sure?"
  "Yes." I confirmed. "I want you. Right here. Right now." He groaned and he was shocked at how desperate i sounded but I didn't care. My arousal was spiking by the minute and
I wanted to rid of her virginity. I wanted to loose it the the only guy I've ever loved. That night I did.
Little did I know that he left the next day and I didn't see him for a year.