Anxiety vs normal

18

"Yello" I smiled sitting next to Joey on the couch. Everyone stared at me weird even Mikey who I haven't spoken to since he got here.
"Hells about to freeze over" I heard joey mumble.
"Why would tell freeze over..."
"Your smiling and you willingly sat next to me." He had a point there.
"Your Right... But ive got news." I grinned as everyone started paying attention
"Please dont tell my your pregnant." Alex said actually looking frightened
"I havent had sex since ive been here which has been about a month. So no." I rolled my eyes stealing a glance at Mikey who eyed me with a look I couldnt decipher.
"I could help you with that" max smirked earning a smack upside the head by selena and a deathly glare from Alex
"No thanks. Anyways there is a party tonight. And with the parents going to the beach house later I thought we all could go?"
"Whos party?"
"Damon lawfords"
"How did You get an invite to that? Joey and max are the only ones out of us all that have got one?" Alex asks surprised
"Well he texted me and said he needed a cute tough girl at his party and I could bring anyone I wanted. I asked for all of you... And he said yes." I look at Mikey and nod. I'm a nice person.
A chorus of yeas and sures go around I nod and go get ready.
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"Stay out of trouble." Alex warned eying me.
"Its not like it's my first him" I reply glaring at him.
" I know but partying is part of the reason you are here."
"No. Me sleeping with my best friends and havinh pictures posted on every social media sight is the reason I'm here." I huff and walk into the house with the others in tow. I walked straight to the kitchen.
"Alright dont get too drunk. Stay with at least one person and make it home safely." Alex muttered as he eyed a girl in the corner of the room.
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So I kinda didnt listen to Alex's rules. Hes such a party pooper. I'm wasted. I lost everyone. I dont know how to get home.
"Bre!" I turn facing Joey. He looked worried for a split second then his face went back to his normal no emotion self.
"What's up hot stuff" I smile amd jump on him.
"Easy. Youve had way too much to drink. Let's get you to bed."
"Ooh id love to go to bed with you. Its all ive dreamed of since our eyes met that day on the field." He says something but I dont listen and keep going as we walk down the street. "Well not really. I mean I still have day dreams about jumping your bones but... All I can think abiut is the accident even if I'm not in the same town or state even... I miss him." He looks at me confused as we walk inside my house.
"You mean mikey?"
"No. I mean yea I've missed Mikey. I love mikey. I have since the day I met him. But I don't know wbout him anymore. He left me. But sammy stayed. He made me feel better in all ways imaginable. You remind me of him. Closed off. The way you have that dark look im your eyes. But your different. You can be sweet. Your hot. You make me feel different from what he did. But sammy he made me happy. He showed me what weed was. He took me to parties. He was the second person I was with after Mikey. He taught me pleasure. He taught me teasing. Like you did the other day in the kitchen. I liked that. I like the feeling you give me" I mumer laying in bed. He looked at me with a look I couldnt make out with the darkness.
"Goodnight bre." He said breaking the silence
"No Joey. Stay please. I Don't want to be alone with the nightmares." I beg grabbing his hand.
"Is that why you scream at night?" Joey asks getting in the bed next to me
"Yea. They are terrible. I see the fire. I see him." I sigh closing my eyes
"Sammy?"
I hum as i slowly fall asleep.. I will regret this in the morning.