The Sharpest Lives (Frerard)

chapter 11

Gerard's pov

after we got home frank just sat on the couch I hugged him for a little then made us some lunch, just sandwiches nothing fancy. Frank wouldn't touch his, i was worried he hadn't eaten since last night, but I didn't push him. we both sat on the couch I fell asleep . so did Frankie.  Mikey and ray came in a little after they both looked exhausted, "why are you two so tired where were you ?" they looked at me "I was at rays and we are tired because it half 11and we had a umm ... busy after noon" he smirked and looked up at ray. wait 11 ... how long have I been sat here with Frankie?  Ages, wow.

" gee, we've been asleep for 9 hours?" I nodded he looked at me with wide eyes puffy and red from crying I pulled his face closer and kissed him only quickly but it was meaningful I looked into his eyes " I love you so much Frankie" I whispered

" I love you two gee-bear" he replied "get a room you two !"shouted Mikey who was making gagging faces I looked at him "you basicly just told me u had bum sex with one of my best friends" he shrugs "you asked"he mumbles, they walk into the kitchen together and I walk with a very sleepy And sad frank to our room he lays in bed and faces away from me." good night frank."I say he doesn't answer so I just cover him up and walk back downstairs met by Mikey and ray playing a very close game of Mario cart on the Wii. I sit on the couch and watch, lost in my thoughts

' I hope franks okay I really worry I'm sure he'll be fine he's not being frank, not happy and childish the was I love him, I mean I still love him. nothing can change that. I had my own problems today as well I don't know if Mikey remembers but next week is 3 years since grandma Helena died I miss her, she taught me to sing , to draw and to play piano. I love, loved her so much it took me a while to get over her death so I know how hard it will be on frank. But he has me. he had me and all the others we will take care of him.'

"um gee ? me and ray are going to bed are you okay do you want some help with anything ?"

"no ... no its fine, thanks though moikey"

he crosses his arms playfully" I don't care how worried you are about your boyfriend don't call me that " a hint of a smile crosses rays lips and he drags him up the stairs "night!'' I call after them they call back but I can't hear what they say, I walk into the kitchen and make my self a coffee. I aware I love coffee almost as much as I love frank, almost... I said almost. when I finish my coffee I place it in the sink and walk up the stairs slowly, when I reach my room I open the door. Frankie hadn't moved since earlier I jump in next to him wrap my arms around his waist and resting my head between his head and shoulder

" gee?"  he mumbles "yeah Frankie?"

"I really do love you, you know that right? "

" I know baby I know"I whisper "good" he says and we fall asleep.

franks pov

I drift to sleep with gee next to me I feel safe.

*dream*

"Frankie ? Frankie iero!" a voice comes from darkness "you realise that this is all your fault right? we didn't have to die !" suddenly its not all darkness a huge flame appears and I realise its my house a figure emerges its on fire but doesn't show signs of pain " why did you leave me and your father ? "

"mum ? mum is that you ? "

"well who the fuck else are you expecting ? the queen of England? now answer my question why did you leave us to die ? why didn't you save us ?"

"mum ... I ... you .... you said you didn't want me ... you said I was useless I'm sorry ... I didn't mean to."

"no of course you didn't you never 'mean to' even that Gerard kid will leave you eventually your drive him away he doesn't love you he just feels bad for you!"

"no, no your lying!"

*end dream

gees pov

I am awoken by frank shouting in his sleep I shake him, softly at first but harder until he wakes up and looks up at me "gee don't leave !" he cries putting his head in my chest crying he sobs loudly I wait for him to calm down before asking him what the dream was about

"it was my mum she said it was my fault that they died and that... that you will leave me because you don't love... because you don't love me."he burst into tears again I pull him close

"frank I will never leave you. I love you more than anything nothing you do can scare me away I will never stop caring about you even if we break up you will always be the most important person in my life. don't ever forget that! okay?"

"okay, thank you gee" I nod and pull him in even closer I won't ever leave you frank I promise