The Sharpest Lives (Frerard)

Bandit

Gerard's pov

we walk around the back of my house towards the graveyard hand in hand walking through the trees when we reach the grave yard frank wraps his hand around my neck and kisses me softly on the lips it was sweet and slow not rushed or forced. I kiss him back and push him against a tree we kiss for a long time stopping now and then for air. when we finish I rest my head on Frankie's shoulder which was awkward because he was so much shorter than me, he looks around and gasps. "oh my god, I know an amazing park right round the corner, can we go? please, please! please !" he says pouting and looking me in the eye."oh course Frankie" he guides me through the brush towards a small park. its deserted and we just sit on the swings talking about everything and nothing. a couple of people come and go but they don't stay long. until I see a familiar face walking towards us. Lindsey. "frank, that's Lindsey" I whisper to frank I try and hide my face from her line of sight. I think its working "Gerard way?" shit " hi Lindsey " I say looking at her she doesn't seem happy to see me but not angry either. "so did frank tell you I was looking for you ?" she says giving frank a death stare "no, but we've been busy" I say confused but not wanting to throw frank under the bus "well geebear I really need to talk to you" she places her hand on my face "in private" she says motioning towards frank "no Lindsey me and frank are engaged anything you have to say to me you can say to both of us" she takes her hand away quickly and wipes it on her skirt as if she could catch the gay I think I hear her mutter 'ewwww' under her breath "well Gerard I just thought you'd want to know that I had a baby 6 months  ago her name is bandit ... she's yours" I sit there with my mouth open. frank gets up and runs away wiping his eyes. I should go after him but .." how do you know she's mine?" I say looking Lindsey in the eye "I hadn't been with anyone after you and I was already pregnant when we broke up."

"but we only had sex once, you were on the pill" she looked down at her feet "no gee I could tell u were slipping away and the way you looked at frank I could just tell. so I said I was on the pill so you would have sex with me and fall back in love with me" I stand up and push past her "bye Lindsey" I say sharply and run back to the house "frank !" I shout as I run faster.

franks POV

"well Gerard I just thought you'd want to know that I had a baby a6 months ago her name is bandit ... she's yours" Gerard doesn't respond and after this I can't take it anymore I push Lindsey out the way and run towards home I burst in the front door and rush up the stairs I grab a bag and shove some cloths in and a pair of shoes I g!o into gees draw to get some socks, I don't know where I'm going but every little helps, And I find his old stash in the back two small bags one with weed the other with coke I take the bags into the bath room and lock the door I pull out some rolly paper and a filter and roll one with the weed before I light it I make a line with the coke and finish off the full bag then I light the fag and wait patiently for it to start affect it happens almost instantly the voices those who had become so familiar before me and gee had got together the voices who tell me I'm useless the voices who tell me I'm not good enough for gee or anyone for that matter. but for once those voices aren't a bad thing they remind me that I'm still alive that I can still feel pain. I hug my legs an cry. No matter what happens now I will never have my Gerard he will have to be a farther and that means probably me two.

I hear gee calling my name he sounds like he's gonna cry I realise then how selfish I am being I can't imagine how hard this is on gee "I'm here gee" I say my words slur and are almost inaudible he rushes into the bath room his eyes scan my arms he sighs when he sees no blood then he sees the bags. "Frankie... no" he says and hugs me. I shake my head to try and get rid of the drilling sound that had replaced the voices or was at least drowning them out. he looks at me I can't answer him I'm too distracted by the flowers dancing behind his head "Frankie if u can hear me and understand nod" it takes me a while but I nod slowly "okay frank I'm going to help you shower then we can go to bed okay?" he says I nod again sooner this time he picks me up like a baby and puts me in the shower I support my self up on the wall. he takes all his clothes off and mine. and he turns the shower on the cold water surprises me and I jump but it soon warms up and gee hops in. he washes my hair fast and pulls me out again he dries me off putting a pair of boxers and one of his old shirts on me then places me in bed and goes off. to get dressed he slides in next to me but faces the other way I shut my eyes and fall into a restless sleep. every now And then gee mumbles something i  know he's worried I feel  awful because I couldn't be there for him I should have stayed I shouldn't have taken the drugs. most of it has worn off now and I whisper "I'm sorry" in gees ear and try to fall asleep.

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okay hi I haven't done one of these in a while this was hard to write and I cried my self I'm going through a lot atm so I'm sorry if I take longer to post these but I have news I'm not single any more *mini wave in approval of me* so I'm happier haha sooooo enjoy bye !!!

killjoy x