Zayn Malik - Ziana

Chapter 3 - Save you tonight - Part 2

Chapter 3 - Save you tonight - Part 2

I walked towards Zayn. And as i walked up to the door my head turns to face the floor cause I can't look at him. I just can't. His lips were even paler than before but managed to give me a half smile. I looked down. I;m just afraid, afraid of looking at him, afraid of his answer, afraid of everything. He slowly lift my head up, stroke my cheeks and wiped away the constant tears that keep falling. I finally mustered my courage and looked at him in the eyes. His eyes were watery and when he blinked his eyes, tears fell down. My heart broke into a million pieces to see a guy crying in front of me.

'It ... i ... t re..al...ly ... hurt me to see Louis hugging and giving you a kiss', Zayn said while holding my hands. I remained silent. I don't know how to respond to that. I wanted to scream at him saying 'IT HURTS ME TO KNOW YOU WERE ONCE WITH EVA AND EVA IS STILL WAITING FOR YOU' but i just can't do that. It's better for me to remain silent than to start a fight with him.

'Let's go to the nearby park and we can talk things out' Zayn suggested. Through out the journey to the park, we didin't even say a word. It was so tensed. Zayn was never quiet around me. But today was different, he was quiet, really quiet. When we reached the park, we settled ourselves down on a brown bench which was facing the pond. The park was beautiful.

'So .. what do you want?' I asked Zayn rudely. It hurts me to ask him in that rude manner. But my ego took over me which then resulted to me asking him in a rude tone.

'What do i want? What do i want? I want you to know it kills me to see my best friends giving you a hug and a kiss! Do you know that?' Zayn started to raise his voice.

Before i could even answer him, he started to blurt everything out and i was in dismay. I kept quiet and listen to everything he had to say.

'Did you know that everytime i see you my heart beats race? Did you know how hard it is to hide my feelings? Do you know how much i think of you? Did you know you never left my mind? Do you know you gave me butterflies in my stomach? Do you know i don't want anybody to ever have you? Do you know what i'm feeling Diana?! Do you? Do you know how crazy I can be when i see you smile? When i see you laughing? Do you know that you are driving me insane & i keep looking forward to spend my whole day with you? DO YOU KNOW HOW FAST MY HEART IS RACING NOW,DIANA?! DO YOU?!' Zayn asked me.

I don't feel like answering him. I just don't so I stood up and left. He then shouted 'I was wrong to tell you this, you never did care about my feelings. you never felt the same way as me. All you care about was my best friends. Thanks Diana. Leave me now, i don't wish to see you anymore. Just leave the apartment. Pretend that me and you never ever met'

I walked away, crying. My heart broke,again. His words were sharp and it pierced right through my heart. I feel like punching him. On the other hand, i was the dumb one. Why didin't i tell him I felt the same way as him?

Why didin't i tell him that his touch calmed me down, that his smile is amazing, that the way he looked at me in the eyes gave me butterflies in my stomach? Why didin't i have the courage to do that? Oh right.. cause of my ego. Cause of my flacking ego. I hated myself for having such a high ego, but at the same time, i hated Zayn .. he shouldn't have said those words to me.

But the fact is, he did blurted out and his word hurt me deep. I made my way to the boys apartment with Zayns' voice echoing in my mind. Those words. I can't stop crying. I just can't. I was about to knock on the door when I see Niall standing at the doorstep, looking at me.

'You are crying,again' Niall said.