Zayn Malik - Ziana

Chapter 4 - Moments - Part 10

Chapter 4 - Moments - Part 10

As we ere about to leave the rooftop, Zayn received a text from Eva. Yes, Eva is back. Zayn looked at me and shrugged his shoulder. 'What does she want?' I ask him, calmly. 'No, i love you. Please know that. Eva won't get in between us. Nothing will,babe. Nothing' Zayn said. I looked at him and smiled. 'Babe, it's alright. I'm not scolding you or anything. I'm not angry with you darling. I'm just asking what she wants. Don't worry love' I replied him with a smile. I held his right hand to calm him down. He tried to smile and I said 'Go on babe.' He unlocked his phone and read the text message out loud.

-Text message-

Eva: Hi Babe! Heard you and the rest of the lads managed to qualify for x-factor? Congrats!

I smiled and looked at Zayn. 'See, it isn't that bad' I said as I wrap my arms around his waist. Zayn remained quiet and he received another text. He nervously read the text to himself and I noticed that tears were filling up his eyes. I look at him, stroke my index finger on his right cheek and smiled. 'Whats wrong babe? I'm here' I said as I hug him tightly. He returned me with a tight hug and forced a smile. ' I love you so much Diana. I love you with all my heart. I know I have hurt you in the past. But, i made a promise to stop hurting you. But, I just can't fulfill that promise. I hate myself,Diana. I hate myself. I keep hurting the girl i love. Why can't i be happy with you and only you? Why are there so many restrictions? Why are there people trying to destroy us? Why do they hate me so much? Why Diana? Why? I love you so much and I can't afford to hurt you babe. I can't' Zayn uttered the words and he went to the corner of the rooftop to look at the view. Eva must have sent him a text which made him so hurt. I walked slowly towards him and hg him from the back. He pushed me away but i didin't give up. I wanted him to know, everything will be okay. I gave it another try. I hug him from the back and placed my right hear at his back.

'Stop pushing me away,babe. Just close your eyes and calm down. I won't be saying anything' I said as I hugged him. Zayn placed his hand over mine. 'I can imagine you being hurt babe' Zayn said. I remained quiet and let him talk. 'If we ever become popular, girls will be hanging around me, hugging and taking pictures of me. I'm so sorry you have to share your boyfriend with different girls out there. I'm sorry you can't keep me to yourself. I'm sorry babe. Maybe we....' Zayn suddenly stopped talking.

'Maybe we what?' I asked, nervous. 'Maybe we are not made for each other?  Maybe God has something plan for both of us? Maybe we were never meant to be. I can't hurt you babe. It's better I hurt you now than seeing you hurt later on' Zayn spoke those words. Little did he know, I die a little when he told me we weren't meant for each other. Then who was I meant for? Who? Who was he meant for? Eva? no. this isn't right.

I smiled to stop the tears from falling. I can't show him I'm weak. I can't. I stood infront of him, took in a deep breath and smiled. 'Did you realized I didn't even answer any of your questions? Did you realize that you made up those scenes in your head and not me? Do you realize that no one else is hurting me but you? Do you realize all that babe? Do you realize that I'm ready to commit fully to this relationship? Do you realize that I'm mentally preparing myself to have a pop star as my boyfriend? Do you realize that? I guess you don't. All you care is about you and yourself. Think about me for once. Just once. Close your eyes, touch your heart and tell me what I mean to you. Tell me what do you see in the future. Do you see us? Don't answer me now. Think deeply. I'll be leaving now. Don't chase me. Don't run after me. Don't look for me. Don't call me. Don't text me. Just don't. I'll look for you once i feel better. Maybe we need a break. A short break. Take care of yourself when you are gone for your x-factor. I'll be supporting you,I promise. I'll be looking out for you in the television. Just look after yourself and keep smiling. You know i love you' I said. I gave him a final hug, tiptoed so I can reach his cheeks. I gave him a kiss on his right cheeks and stroke his cheek. 'I love you, reflect babe. Remember our promises? Maybe you don't' I said and left the rooftop.

'Diana.........aren't you gonna send me to the airport tomorrow?' Zayn shouted before I left.

'I won't. Don't hope cause it will only disappoint you. Love you Zayn Jawaad Malik. & i'll never stop loving you. This necklace will still be around my neck through our good and bad times. Bye. Love you so much babe' I replied and walked down the stairs.

Disappointment.