Zayn Malik - Ziana

Chapter 3 - Save you tonight - Part 9

Chapter 3 - Save you tonight - Part 9

He then pushed me back to the wall. I waited for him to voice out. 'I....' he said again. 'I.. what?' I asked him, irritated. 'I......... just wanted to tell you.. that ' he continued. His eyes that were looking at me suddenly shifted to the pathway outside the hut. I felt that someone is approaching. That couldn't be the boys, cause if it was the boys, they will already be running towards the hut.

Zayn looked at me then shouted in my face 'I... just wanted to tell you this is all a joke. Do you really think I will do this for a girl like you? Cheap and useless? Haha, keep dreaming girl. A guy like me will never do this for a girl like you. I prepared this so I can hurt you all over again. Stop being stupid next time.' Zayn said and laughed. The person who was standing at the door then entered. 

'Hey babe, i missed you. Why did you leave the house without telling me?' the high pitched voice said.

This must be Eva, I thought. Well, she is the only girl I know who have this high pitched voice. 

'Hey babe, i missed you too. Where were we?' Zayn asked Eva. I was in the hut, hearing the conversation and witnessing the scene. I don't know how he do it. I don't know how he can hurt me for so many times. I just don't know why I keep hoping for a miracle to happen. I just don't know what he wants from me. 

'Where were we? This.' Eva said and leaned towards Zayn. I witnessed this scene again, where their lips met for the second time. Zayn had his hands wrapped around Evas' waist while Evas' hand was placed on Zayns' chest. I just can't leave the hut and i don't know why. I wanted to watch their romance so I could get hurt all over again and eventually be numb. They had a pretty long kiss and I just had to stand there, looked at them and cry. All i can do now is to cry. Yes, I am that weak. 

Zayn POV.

If only Diana knew how much impact she brought to my life. If only she knew that it killed me to do this to her. If only she knew how much i hate to see her cry. If only she knew how much I want to wrap my arms around her. If only she knew how much I want to whisper to her and tell her everything will be okay cause I am here. If only she knew how badly I want to wipe her tears. If only if she knew what happened. If only I can have just a chance to tell her every single thing and maybe things will get better. But will she ever forgive me? No she won't. If I were to be in her shoes I would already killed myself. But Diana is a different girl. Just look at her, still standing strong despite the hurt I caused her. I don't deserve her and she don't deserve me. She deserve someone better. She deserve to smile. She deserve to be told she's beautiful every single day. She deserves the best cause she is the best. My life is a mess. I had to tell Diana that this was all a joke cause I saw Eva approaching the hut. Eva ... you don't know what she's like. My parents might have killed me if Eva knew I was about to kiss Diana. My parents have set me up with Eva and by hook or by crook, i have to get married to Eva. There is no chance of me being together with Diana. All this while, Eva lied to her parents saying she was with me even though I rejected her love. Eva kept threatening me. I remembered her words 'You love Diana, don't you Zayn? But remember, i'm meant for you and you are meant for me. If you ever kissed Diana or do anything to her, that will be the end of Diana. Remember that. Oh, i will also tell your parents about it. You don't want that to happen don't you?' How could I not feel scared? She threatened to hurt Diana. Tell me I'm a screwed up mess. I lost Diana & I lost the boys. But, I am determined to do something about this. I am.  Diana and the rest of the boys have to know my situation so they can at least understand me.

The boys then entered the hut. Niall grabbed my right arm and dragged me out of the hut. The rest of the boys glared at Zayn and walked away. They didin't say a word to each other, maybe cause another fight would just occur. We then walked to the boys apartment, slowly and talking about what happened in the hut.

'Stop being stupid, Diana. Stop waiting for a miracle to happen. Cause it won't happen. It just won't. I can't believe Zayn did this. he was never like this, never let me tell you' Harry said as he put his arms around my shoulder. 

'Forgive me Diana. This wouldn't happen if Eva didin't come. We would still be joking and having fun in the apartment if Eva didin't come' Louis said. He felt bad and he started to cry. 'Louis.. this isn't you fault. I'm fine. Don't worry. Thanks for being here guys' I said, forcing myself a smile. 'We will still be together, going through the bad times and good times together' Niall said. We then had a group hug in the middle of the pathway. Everybody said something except for Liam. He was really, really quiet. 

'Liam.. you alright?' Niall asked and put his arms around Liams' shoulder. He didin't even looked at us. He had his phone in his hands and kept looking at it. We kept walking slowly, enjoying the morning breeze. The lads are getting quieter as days go by. 

'Breakfast?' Niall asked and smiled. We laughed at him. Niall and his food. 'Yeah sure, where?' Harry asked. 'Hold on.. let me think' Niall said and kept quiet. 

'You guys go ahead, I have to go somewhere' Liam said and ran off. The boys looked shocked and they were actually worried about Liam. He left just like that. 

'Liam.. please be okay' Louis said.