Zayn Malik - Ziana

Chapter 5 - Every Breath.

Chapter 5 - Every Breath. 

Zayn POV

What have I done? Why do i always screw things up? Why do I always hurt the girl i love? Why? What's wrong with me? I packed my clothes and placed it in the luggage. My heart is aching so badly. I just want to see Diana for the last time. I hope she will be there, at the airport, giving me a final hug and wishing me good luck. But i know she won't. My mind is in a mess. Eva will be the host for x-factor. I was so shocked to hear the news. And I'm sure, Diana will be hurting much more after she finds out that Eva will be with me every time.  Maybe I should text her, i thought. Yes I should. I should put my ego aside and text Diana. I took in a deep breath and grab my phone. I sat on my bed, looked at my wallpaper and tears started to stream down my cheeks. I wipe them with my thumb and typed out a long message for Diana. I was hoping she would reply me. The rest of the lads are packing their stuff. Fasha will be tagging along with Niall since she wants to visit her parents there. 

-Text Message-

Zayn: Good morning sunshine. :')  You cried your heart out yesterday, didn't you? I bet you cried yourself to sleep. You didn't have dinner, didn't you?  You were replaying our videos and crying, didn't you? You were looking through your phone gallery and smiling with tears in your eyes, didn't you? I am a jerk,right? I know I am. I'm sorry for hurting you this much. I know sorry can't mend that broken heart of yours. But I can only afford to say I'm sorry. Babe, I know our songs had better rhymes, before today. Darling, i guess i made the wrong mistakes. I understand if you need your space, please take your time. Before you go away, so far away,you need to realize, baby it's not just you. You know it hurts me too, watching you leaving , with tears on your sleeve. Don't you notice that mine aren't exactly dry? Baby girl, stop crying alright? Keep smiling when I'm away. I wouldn't be surprise to see you with some other guy when I return. You deserve someone who can treat you better. I guess I'm not the one, right? Please smile babe. To know that you are smiling will mean so much to me. I'll miss you so much babe. I will. And guess what, the necklace is still around my neck. Please have a proper meal. Have a good rest. Have a good night sleep and please look after yourself cause I can't be there anymore. I'm hoping to see you soon baby :') I'm hoping to see you at the airport, but I know I won't. Take care princess. I love you so much and remember this? No matter what comes in between us, we will always find our way back? We will find our back babe, i promise. I'll miss you princess & I love you so much. I'm going to leave for the airport now babe. I love you so much :')

I waited for her reply. But there was no reply from her. My heart dropped when we reached the airport. I had my phone in my hand all the while, hoping to receive a text from her. But no, she did not even make an effort to send me a text. I guess i mean nothing to her. 'You alright?' Harry asked as he walked beside me. I looked at him and nodded. Before we entered the departure hall, I turned around one last time, hoping she would be there. I wiped my tears and walked in. She wasn't there. I lost her. 

Liam then walked beside me with his arms around my shoulder. 'Don't worry about it Zayn. I know it is hurting you. But, be strong cause the lads are all with you,remember?' Liam calmed me down. I nodded my head and plug in my earpiece. I blocked myself from the world. I just can't go on without Diana. But , I know she can go without me in her life. It's the end of us. It really is I thought. 

-A few hours later-

We arrived at the airport. The boys were so hyped. Niall and Fasha were so adorable while the rest of the lads were laughing, cracking up lame jokes. I still had my phone in my hand. I was praying that my phone will vibrate. I was hoping Diana's name will appeared on my phone screen. But. No. there wasn't any text from her. She moved on. She really did. We took our luggage and waited for Nialler outside the arrival hall. He was helping Fasha with her luggage. Once I stepped outside the arrival hall, tears streamed down my cheeks. I can't stop crying. I just can't stop crying. I dropped my luggage and cried my heart out. There she was. She was in a white dress, her hair bun up. She was holding a sign which says 'Ziana. Surprise' I walked up to her. My body was shaking. I was so nervous. Once I am in front of her, I hugged her tightly, crying even harder. She pull away from the hug gave a smile and held me by my waist.  'Surprise Babe' she said sweetly. 'Don't cry babe. i am here. Why are you even crying babe?' she asked as she took out her handkerchief and wiped my tears away. 

'What? Diana is here?' Niall shouted. Louis turned around to face Niall and say 'Let them have their time. Ziana,we will see you in the hotel room alright? I'll bring your luggage along,Zayn' Louis said and the rest of the lads went off. 'You are asking me why I am crying so badly?' Zayn asked. I nodded my head with my hands around his waist. His hand were around my shoulder. 'I thought you moved on,babe. You didn't reply to my text. You didn't even call me or anything. I thought you moved on. I don't deserve you,right?' Zayn asked me, still crying so badly.

'Babe, listen to me. You deserve me. You are the best damn thing that has ever happened to me. Will you please stop crying now babe? I am here. I'll be watching your live shows and everything. I will be there for you through out your journey. Stop worrying. I love you babe' I answered Zayn and we walked out from the airport. 

'I got a special night plan for us today' I said to Zayn and smiled.

Zayn gave me a forehead kiss, looked at me and whispered the words 'I love you'

I miss Zayn and it was good to be in his arms,again.