Zayn Malik - Ziana

Chapter 5 - Every breath - Part 6

Chapter 5 - Every breath - Part 6

I wiped away the tears and told myself to stay strong. I was born without him & i'm pretty sure i can go on with life without him. I can do this, i guess. My eyes were puffy and red and I can't stop crying, no matter how much I convinced myself that everything will be okay. 'Diana! I bought lunch!' Zac said as he entered my room.  I quickly wiped my tears away. He can't see me crying, he can't. 'Diana! You okay?!' he asked and ran towards me. I plastered a smile and nodded my head.  'Then look at me and say you are okay' Zac replied. I looked away, not wanting to face him. 'Diana....' he called out lovingly, my heart beat faster than before. He reminds me so much of Zayn and that made me cried more. I remained silent , avoiding his question. Zac then grab my right hand and stroke them with his thumb. 'What's wrong?' he asked, calmly. 'Nothing.' I replied, my voice shivering. He gently pushed my head to the right so that I'm directly facing him. He stroke my right cheek with his index finger & gave me a half smile. 'What's wrong?' he asked calmly, still stroking my cheeks. 'Don't worry, you can tell me about it, I promise to be there for you babe' he assured me. I nodded my head and forced a smile. He sat infront of me, holding both my hands & hearing to my stories. I told him everything, how I felt & how much I love Zayn. He gave me his full attention & i felt so much better after expressing to him my feelings. 

'You done?' he asked & smiled sweetly. I nodded my head and smiled. 'Well, now, I need you to listen to me alright? Listen to me carefully. I know it hurts being in this position. Trust me, I know how you feel cause I have been there. he is stupid to let an amazing girl like you go. He is dumb for loving someone else. He is an idiot for ditching you and pushing you away. He is an idiot for hurting you for countless of times & yet, you still loved him with all your heart. He is stupid for playing around with your never ending love for him. He is stupid for not loving you. & babe, you are amazing, trust me. I promise you. Remember this, after each heartbreak,  it will lead you closer to your true love. Don't ever stop loving a guy alright? Not all guys are like him. You will meet Mr Right soon even though Mr Right is not Zayn. You are amazing & i want you to stop crying. I'll help you move on alright?' Zac said and lean in for hug. He then kissed my right cheek and it sends chill down my spine. I smiled and told him 'I'll move on, thanks so much Zac! I owe you!' 

'Let's have lunch!' Zac said in excitement and unpacked the food.  'Do you want me to feed you?' he teased. 'Can you?' I answered , joking around with him. 'What?! I was just joking, but sure babe, i can feed you! I would love to do that!' He replied and smiled cheekily. 'Why thank you, mr handsome!' I said. I could see his cheeks turning red and I teased him. 'look who's blushing!' I teased as I messed his brown hair up. 'Stop observing me, i know i'm hot! But stop!' He replied & laughed out loudly.  I rolled my eyes and smiled. Vain, just like Zayn. How can I move on? He reminds me so much of Zayn. 

We were chatting & teasing each other, laughing around & smiling when I saw Liam entering the door. 'DIANA! YOU OKAY?!' he asked as he sat on my bed. 'Liam! What are you doing here?' I asked in shocked. 'To visit you , silly!' he replied & gave me a tight hug. 'Oh, where's the rest?' I asked , curious. 'They are on the way up!' Liam said as he turned to look at Zac. Zac smiled and put his right hand out. 'Hi, im Zac. Zac Martin' he introduced himself. He smiled which revealed his dimples. 'Oh Hi Zac, i'm Liam, Liam Payne' Liam replied. 'Hey! Aren't you that guy from one direction?' Zac asked. His face lit up in excitement. Liam nodded his head and smiled. Just then, the rest of the lads entered the room, including Zayn. They each gave me a hug, except for Zayn. He stood in the corner, looking so annoyed. I told them how i met Zac since all of them were asking me who Zac was. 'I LOVE YOU MAN. THANKS FOR SAVING THIS DONKEY, I DON'T KNOW WHAT WOULD HAPPENED WITHOUT YOU!' Louis said & gave Zac a hug.

I looked at Louis & stick my tongue out. He just called me a donkey. Zac lean in and whispered in my ears 'Is that Zayn , standing at the corner?' I nodded my head and continued talking with the rest of the lads. Zayn left the room soon after. 'Guys, thank you so much for visiting me. i love each and every one of you. But, i gotta go. I gotta leave your life. I gotta manage my own life without you guys. It hurts me to leave you guys. You guys means so much to me. But ..... i don't want you to fight with Zayn. Zayn is much more important than me. I love you guys so much. Promise me you'll look after yourself & keep smiling? I'll pray for your success. I always will.  & when you become a hit, don't you dare forget me!' I said, my voice trembling. It hurt me so much to leave this lads, but i gotta do it. 

'No diana. No.' Louis said as tears streamed down his cheeks. Harry sat beside me and place his head on my left shoulder. He took my hand and whispered 'Please don't leave us , Diana' Niall eyes were red and puffy. He looked me in the eyes, wiped my tears away and said 'Do what's best for you. If you think leaving us would be better, then go ahead. We will meet some other time. I love you, Diana. Thanks' He said and left the room. My heart broke when to see Niall crying & leaving me without saying goodbye. 'No matter how far you run away from us, just remember, we will always look for you, no matter what happen. We love you & we never want to lose you. Take a rest and we will see you tomorrow. You must be tired' Liam said. His face clearly showed he was upset & disappointed. The boys left the room without giving me a hug. I looked at Zac & he was looking at me. He gave me a tight hug , rubbing my bag while he hugged me tightly. He whispered in my ears 'Everything will be okay, everything will be okay' 

Niall's voice kept playing in my mind. I could still see him crying in my mind. I could still remember how he left the room without giving me a hug. What have I done?

I need to make the right decision. I need to.