Deleted Scenes - It Should Have Been Us Book One

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{James POV}

I wanted to see her so bad. I feel dejected that things still aren’t clear between us. I can feel there’s something and I know she can sense it too. But she’s been resisting it, denying what we could have. Frankly, I don’t like the whole no-commitment setup, but it’s all she wants right now and damn if I don’t desperately want her in my life to have to settle with whatever part of her she can give me.

I didn’t see her all day. So I decided to just drop by their house and surprise her. Only to get the bigger surprise. I just got out of the car carrying a bouquet of her favorite flowers for her when another car drove by and parked right in front of their gate. She got out of the passenger’s side, not waiting for the douche who happens to be her ex getting out of the driver’s side. They didn’t notice me. I can hear them from where I am standing.

“I don’t think this is a good idea” Doubt lacing her voice.

“Are you official yet?”

“No, but-“

“Then you can’t make me stop hoping. I still love you. I really do. Whatever I’ve done, I’m sorry okay? I’m sorry for hurting you. I know there’s no excuse for it. But you love me Nadz, and I love you so much. I promise if you take me back, magbabago na ako. Hindi na kita bibigyan ng dahilan para masaktan. Give me a chance please.” Huh. Famous last words.

“You don’t understand. It’s complicated right now. Gusto kong maniwala sa’yo. I really do. Pero sobrang daming beses na kasi. I loved you. And you did nothing but hurt me every chance you get.”

“Is it because of him? Ilang bes na tayong nagbreak at nagkabalikan. Kaya ka ba nagkakasecond thoughts dahil gusto mo na si James? Yun ba? You’re on a rebound?” Wow.

“No, he’s a friend. He’s been there for me. Always. And his friendship’s been helping a lot. But what I feel for you has nothing to do with him. Just…just give me time. I need to sort things out on my own.”

He looked at her intently, then he lifted his hand to caress her cheek. “Nadz, mahal kita. And I’m willing to wait. Just like how I waited for you to open up your heart after JC. Nandito lang ako okay?” Then he kissed her. Fucking kissed her and she didn’t push him. At least JC was decent enough to not hurt Nadz the way he did.
I left without making a noise, leaving the flowers in the trash on the way to my car. Back at the car, I couldn’t help but be reminded of all the times we went out, sometimes with Bret and Sam, or Andre and Yassi, sometimes just us two. I pictured in my head the times she couldn’t keep it in and cry.

The fucker hurts her physically, leaving her bruised she sometimes had no choice but to wear long sleeved cardigans. Her mom was so scared for her she often asks ate Mei, her handler, or Andre to play chaperone on their dates. My friends didn’t like her for me. They were so sure I’m just going after her either because she’s hard to get and I’m going to hurt her in the end or that I would end up her go-to guy and she’ll break my heart instead. Well, what can I say? Love’s a bitch.

I got my phone and speed dialed Sam. Man, where are you? I need a drink. Then I drove so fast it seemed like hell was on my wheels.