What do you want to be when you get older? When you were 5 this was a simple question. I want to be a princess, a ninja, the president. When your 10 it becomes more realistic. I want to be a model, a teacher, an athlete. Then when you're in high school it hits you. The fact you only have 4 years to decide what you want to be. Now those dreams you once had are thrown out the window, and you have to come to reality, maybe I should be a doctor, a lawyer, an accountant.
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I want to be a Graphic Designer.
Oh so you're, going to be coloring on a screen?
It's more than that.
You should become a nurse, or a doctor like your cousin.
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I want to be a Psychologist.
Oh god, why?
So I can help people.
Yeah, people with issues, we already have enough issues in the family.
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People wonder why I shrug every time in get asked that stupid question, it's because no matter what I say I get shitted on for it.
How's school going? Fucken hate this question, it's an ocean of stress and anxiety for me.
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Good, I guess.
And how's math, mom told me you weren't doing too good.
Yeah, I passed with a D.
Well I guess you won't be going to any good colleges...but don't worry we'll find a place for you.
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This is what I get from my family. Can't you just feel the love.?
How've you been? Terrible. I have anxiety that effects my every day living, I want to be put in a hospital to get help, I hurt myself all the time now, I have cuts on my legs that burn when they rub against the fabric of my jeans, I'm neglected half the time at home, and I pray to not wake up almost every night.
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Good.
Just good?
Yup.
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It'll Be Alright
PoetryThis story is about my life. About me living with an evil stepmother. Raising my two siblings. Being cyberbullied constantly. Leaving Bruises. Honestly what else could happen?