A Million Reasons (Clony)

Chapter 15 ⚠️

I woke up on his chest with knocking at the door. Family breakfast. I shook him awake, gently. I examined his body in the daylight. His tanned skin was such a contrast to mine. I looked at his hair. It was messy and poked at random angles as if it could defy gravity.

"I'm so glad I get to see your hair like that." I said running my hands through it. It was undeniably soft.

"I'm so glad I get to wake up to you like this." He motioned at my body. My shirt was far up on my chest and I didn't even notice and my underwear showed a little more skin than I would normally be comfortable with. But this was different, I was different now.

"I think I just came out yesterday Tony." I laughed.

"I think you did." He breathed.

"Breakfast is gonna be awkward. Sure you want to stay?"

"Of course I have to stay, and show them I'm the perfect boyfriend for you." He poked my nose with his finger. I playfully swatted his hand.

"We should get dressed, or at least put pants on." I said as he put on his shirt. I reached in my dresser and brought out two pairs of sweatpants. One size was bigger than the other. I took the smaller ones. He got up and hugged me after putting them on.

"Your beautiful Clay." He said into my ear. My heart skipped.

"Your the most amazing person I know." I replied. "Let's go downstairs and see what happens."

~*~*~
"So, did anything interesting happen yesterday, Clay?" My mom questioned. I looked up from my pancakes. Tony continued to eat.

"Um. Depends on what you call interesting." I couldn't tell if she was angry or not but she looked kinda angry. It was safe to say my dad had no idea what was going on. He continued to eat and looked confused, but shrugging it off.

Tony took some extra bacon from my plate. I scooted my chair closer to his and I leaned my back on his shoulder. He put his arm around me. My dad looked between us with his face contorted in confusion. He looked back at the newspaper. Tony wrapped an arm around my waist. I felt safe. I felt they already knew and I don't have to tell them anymore.

"I'm sorry Clay I just have to clear things up." My mom said. Putting her hand in the middle of the table reassuringly. "Are you and Tony......."

"Dating?" Tony started. "As a matter of fact, yes, Mrs Jensen. I hope you accept us."

I smiled at him. He kissed my cheek. I think my mom almost squealed from excitement. My dads jaw dropped. "Oh my god you guys are so cute. Your Clays first ever date." She smiled at us.

"So, Lainie, how did you figure this out?" My dad asked my mom.

"Well.. I may have opened Clays door and.... saw them...." She smiled awkwardly.

"Oh my god, mom." I cringed, pinching the bridge of my nose.

My dad burst out into laughter. "You, walked in on them..." he made hand motions probably inappropriate for a parent-kid breakfast. "Lainie, if the doors closed, it's probably closed for a reason. I mean, they are teenagers. We were teenagers once."

"That's my cue to leave." I said getting up. "Come on Tony." He followed me up to my room.

"What did you want to do today Clay?" He asked.

"Can we just, lay down for a little while? Watch a movie or something."

"Sure Clay." He smiled at me. "What movie?"  I grabbed one. It had to be that one.

"The Perks of being a Wallflower." I put the disk in. We laid down on my bed. I was between his legs and rested my head on his chest while watching the movie. It was a touchy subject, especially what we went through. But he had to watch it with me. It was a perfect example, especially the mental breakdown and attempted suicide near the end. His chest was rising faster than normal during that scene. I cried, like I always do during that movie. I just never expected him to cry during it. The part that hit him most was when his sister was on the phone with Charlie and he hung up. Tony held me tighter.

"That's how I felt. I thought I lost you." I hugged him.

"But just like the movie, you were the one that saved me." I kissed him to the end credits song "Heroes" by David Bowie.

What would I do without him?

~*~*~*~*~*~*~

It's been well over a month of pretty much nothing happening. Tony and me have been great, Skye loves that we are together, but still finds a way to be annoyed with us kissing. We were officially out now too. The first day was the worst, it felt as if everyone was staring at me. But now I feel free.

"Clay your going to be late for school!"

I ran downstairs grabbing my hoodie and putting it on before I walk outside. "Bye mom."

I walked outside to see the red mustang waiting outside my house. I smiled, opening the door and getting inside.

"Hey babe." Tony smirked and kissed me.

"We're gonna be late." I said and he took off to school. I examined the Christmas decorations on houses. I can't believe how long it has been already.

~*~*~*~

I closed the door to my room again even though my parents were probably long asleep. I turned on the lamp next to my bed to have a little light in the room. Tony put me on my bed and got on top of me. He was still gentle with me, as if I could break.

I took off my shirt and laid back down. He ran his hands over me for the first time. His index finger ran down the middle of my chest. I shivered because his fingers tickled my stomach but also made me aroused. He broke our kiss. And started to kiss my neck.

For some reason. I just thought of Bryce. I couldn't stop. He just turned into him.

"S-St-Stop!" I yelled. He did.

"What baby?" He cupped my face. I flailed, sending the lamp falling. The chord unplugged and the light went out.

"Just stop." 

"I did. Just tell me. Did I hurt you? What did I do wrong Clay?"

I laid on top of him. I was crying into the crook of his neck.

"Tony, I need to tell you something." I started crying more.

"Anything Clay. You can tell me anything." He hugged me tightly.

"I think Bryce raped me."

Sorry this update took a while. It felt as though I was writing for-ev-er. But this is now one of my favorite chapters. Nothing is over yet.
                                     ~Jonathan.