A Million Reasons (Clony)

Chapter 13

I inhaled as I opened my eyes. I was on my bed again. My amazingly soft bed. And Tony was with me. My head was on his chest. We were both clothed. Nothing happened, we just slept together, not in a sexual way. Just sleeping.

I tightened my grip around his waist, he brought his arm around me and rubbed my back softly. I quietly moaned.

"You don't know how much I need you Tony." I said into his chest.

"I think I have an idea." He caressed my head. "I should get going to school. Don't want to be late." He kissed my forehead. "Feel better."

"I will." I hugged him one last time before he left. It was Friday, so we had the whole weekend to sort anything out. Like, will we tell my parents? Will we publicly come out.

"Clay." My mom interrupted my thoughts. "We need to go you have your interview for Hannah's case today."

"Okay, mom just let me get dressed." I did. Slowly. A long sleeved shirt.

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"Please state your full name, age, and the school you currently go to." The man asked. I complied and spoke to the camera. "What was your relationship with Hannah Baker?" Should I tell the truth? Of course. The Bakers have the tapes. They probably already know.

"I was very......... good friends with her." I winced at the 'was'.

"Did anything happen between you two that might have effected her?" Here it goes. Not like I can hide it from them. They already know.

"I'm. I. We, were kissing at this party. Jessica's party, I'm sure you've heard of it. I thought I went to far because she told me to stop." I felt tears rush down my heated face. They placed a tissue box in front of me. I didn't grab one. "And I did. I stopped and asked what's wrong. She told me 'get the fuck out' and, I eventually did. If I would have stayed with her. If I would have talked to her. If I wouldn't have been afraid to love her she would still be he-"

"That's enough." Mrs. Baker stopped me. "Don't make him do this any longer. He's telling the truth."I didn't make eye contact with anyone in the room. "Clay, if you wouldn't mind I would like to talk to you privately. No cameras, no one. Is that okay?" I nodded. The camera was removed and everyone exited the room. Including my mom. Mr. Baker still sat in the chair.

"I'm guessing you want to talk about my tape?" She nodded.

"You probably do understand how hard it was for us to listen to Hannah's. But yours, with actual evidence, was worse. It was horrible to listen to that asshole, violate, you Clay." She hugged me. "I'm so sorry."

"Can you promise me one thing?" I asked.

"Sure?" She questioned.

"Please. Do not present that as evidence unless absolutely necessary." I was crying again.

"I promise." She replied.

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Tony picked me up because my mom had to stay and talk with the Bakers.

"Clay, you okay?"

"Yea I'm fine." I lied.

"You don't look fine, Clay." He looked at me. We were in the parking lot still. "Clay. You don't have to tell me if it hurts you that much. Just know. I love you Clay." He put his muscular arm around me.

"I love you too." I kissed him. Quickly, a reassurance kiss. "You found me? Didn't you?"

"Yea." He wiped his face. It's so hard to see him cry.

"I'm sorry. I didn't think you would find me. I knew you saw Hannah and you shouldn't have found me almost dead. But I have to thank you. You saved me, when I didn't think there was any part of me left to save."

"Clay." He looked over. "Why don't we take you home?"

"That sounds great."

Hi, it's me again. Sorry I kinda had a gap with my updates. I haven't been home. Is Clay coming to terms with his rape? Is Clay going to tell Tony? His parents? Jeff or Skye? Sorry I'm evil.
                                      ~Jonathan