If You Only Knew {Gene X Reader} [PDH]

~~Chapter 47~~

Y/N - Your Name
L/N - Last Name
F/C - Favourite Colour
L/F/T - Local football Team
S/F/C - Second Favourite Colour
M/N - Middle Name
F/F - Favourite Food
F/S - Favourite Snack
E/C - Eye Colour
F/D - Favourite Drink (Like Pepsi,Water Etc.)
F/C - favourite Coffee (If You Don't Like Fizzy Drinks,Water,Milk etc)
N/N - Nickname
I/N - Instagram Name
H/S - Hair Style
F/S/T - Favourite Sweet treat
F/I/D - Favourite Iced Drink
R/N - Rival Name
R/H/C - Rival's Hair Colour (A/N R.H.C is my initials XD)
R/E/C - Rival's Eye Colour
R/L/N - Rival's Last Name
R/S/G - Rival's Ship name With Gene
S/N/G - Ship Name With Gene

More to be added---------------------

Chapter 47 : My First "Real" Crush

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Nothing From Social Media
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*+*+*+Y/N's POV*+*+*

I got off the white leather type chair and pushed a strand of hair behind my ear. I brushed myself off before looking up at my therapist.,

"Thank you for your time." I murmured,I flushed slightly.

"It's no bother Y/N." She said smiling slightly.

She stood up from her chair and opened the door for me.

"Remember you need to visit your doctor on the 22nd!" She said.

"Okay. Thank you for making time for me." I said as I walked past her.

"Y/N. It really is no problem!" She said laughing slightly. I smiled at her before walking out of the building. I bit my lip as I look at my surroundings.

I told my therapist everything,well almost everything. I mostly told her about the voice in my head. I didn't tell her about what I saw with Gene earlier. Maybe I should have? But I might have spilled my feelings for him...

Gene, he does scare me. Everytime I'm around him...I feel like...someone is pressing against my stomach...I just can't describe the feelings I get around him...Zenix,on the other hand...he's scary but he's really sweet...I have to admit I did have a crush on him for a solid 4 days...but I just see him as a really close friend...

I looked at the sky.

"The sky is pretty today." I muttered to myself. I continued walking to my house.

I don't like the way I feel about Gene. But what's the point in liking him? He's leaving for University...I'll never see him...plus University Girls are just...Gene's Type...I have no chance against them...I'll just fade into the background...I just wish I could tell him how I feel...I just wish I wasn't his S*x slave...I just wish he stop using me...I wish I would stop getting these stupid feelings around him...

I stop walking. I stopped thinking...Everything just seemed to stop...

Maybe Gene is my first "real" crush...

Tears stung my eyes...I squeezed them shut trying to make those tears magically disappear. But they wouldn't...I ran...I ran until I seen my house in the distance...I just kept running. I fell to my knees...I started to cry...I started crying for one reason...

I got the courage to get back on my feet. I ran again. I got my keys out and opened the door. My mum and dad were in the living watching TV,not even noticing I came in. I rushed up to my bedroom. I grabbed my pillow and screamed into it. I punched it. I kicked it. Then suddenly I stopped. I started crying. I started crying uncontrollably. I just couldn't stop the tears.

Still crying I went over to my drawer. I took out my razor. I hovered it over my wrist, but I didn't make a mark. My tears dripped onto my scarred skin...

My first real crush was on Gene...

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