If You Only Knew {Gene X Reader} [PDH]

~~Chapter 11~~

Y/N - your name
L/N - last name
F/C - Favourite Colour
L/F/T - Local football team
S/F/C - Second Favourite colour
M/N - middle name
F/F - favourite food
F/S - Favourite snack
E/C - eye colour
F/D - favourite drink like Pepsi
F/C - favourite Coffee if you don't like fizzy drinks
N/N - Nickname

More to be added----------------------

Chapter 11: I can't trust you yet

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Nothing From Social Media
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*+*+*+Y/N's POV*+*+*+

My life has been messed up in different ways. But as I think about that I'm not sure if I can trust them yet.

~~~~~~~~~Flash back~~~~~~~~~~

Your POV

It was my first day of Primary 5. I loved my class. But they got on nerves. I was extremely sensitive to anything. Like "You look like a fat pig". I know most people would laugh that off. But I'm different. As I walked through the halls to find my class. When suddenly someone tripped me. I fell on the ground chin first.

"Hey I didn't know they like losers like you into this side of the hall~!" One person said.

"Can you hurry up and die in a hole already?" Another person said.

I wanted to cry so bad in that moment but I stood up and made my through the crowd.

~~~~~~~~~ Flash back over~~~~~~

Now that I think about it I'm not ready.

"Er..I'm not sure I'm ready yet!" I say.

"Okay if you're not ready you don't have to tell us!" Lucinda says.

"Really? Thanks." I smile weakly.

"Now LETS PAR-TY" Katelyn said. We walk to the hall again. And do some karaoke. Rionach was first.

Play song

I stare at my reflection in the mirror:
"Why am I doing this to myself?"
Losing my mind on a tiny error,
I nearly left the real me on the shelf.
No, no, no, no, no...

Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay.
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.
Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
Just be true to who you are!
(who you are [11x])

Brushing my hair—do I look perfect?
I forgot what to do to fit the mould, yeah!
The more I try the less it's working, yeah
'Cause everything inside me screams
No, no, no, no, no...

Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay.
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.
But tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
There's nothing wrong with who you are!

Yes, no, egos, fake shows, like whoa!
Just go and leave me alone!
Real talk, real life, good love, goodnight,
With a smile that's my home!
That's my home, no...

No, no, no, no, no...

Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay...
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.
Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
Just be true to who you are!
Yeah yeah yeah

We all smiled and clapped for her. But I was next. I've never sang live before. Yes ok I sing in the shower but that's the hight of it. Suddenly Gene joins me in stage. And chooses the song: love the you lie pt.2.

Y/N - Y/N Gene - Gene

~~~~~~~~Song Begins~~~~~~~~~

On the first page of our story
The future seemed so
bright
Then this thing turned out so evil
I don't know why I'm still surprised
Even angels have their wicked schemes
And you take that to new extremes
But you'll always be my hero
Even though you've lost your mind
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's all right because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's all right because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
Ohhh, I love the way you lie
Now there's gravel in our voices
Glass is shattered from the fight
In this tug of war you'll always win
Even when I'm right
'Cause you feed me fables from your head
With violent words and empty threats

Cause you feed me fables from your hand
With violent words and empty threats
And it's sick that all these battles
Are what keeps me satisfied

So maybe I'm a masochist
I try to run but I don't wanna ever leave
'Til the walls are goin' up
In smoke with all our memories

It's morning, you wake, a sun ray hits your face
Smeared makeup as we lay in the wake of destruction
Hush baby, speak softly, tell me you're awfully sorry
That you pushed me into the coffee table last night
So I can push you off me
Try and touch me so I can scream at you not to touch me
Run out the room and I'll follow you like a lost puppy
Baby, without you I'm nothing, I'm so lost, hug me
Then tell me how ugly I am, but that you'll always love me
Then after that, shove me, in the aftermath of the
Destructive path that we're on, two psychopaths but we
Know that no matter how many knives we put in each other's backs
That we'll have each other's backs, 'cause we're that lucky
Together, we move mountains, let's not make mountains out of molehills,
You hit me twice, yeah, but who's countin'?
I may have hit you three times, I'm startin' to lose count
But together, we'll live forever, we found the youth fountain
Our love is crazy, we're nuts, but I refuse counsellin'
This house is too huge, if you move out I'll burn all two thousand
Square feet of it to the ground, ain't shit you can do about it
'Cause with you I'm in my fuckin' mind, without you I'm out it

I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

~~~~~~~~Song ends~~~~~~~~~~

After that Gene scoffed at me then ran off. Leaving me in wonder. I stood there still thinking what was happening. Soon before I knew it it was 00:09. I ran home. And made my way into my house. I was too lazy to change so I went to sleep in my dress.

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