Forgive Me , Maybe ?

Chapter 20

2 days have passed and it was Saturday, the day I would meet  with my father. I  had received a text today from Lully threatening me to stay away from her brother or else yesterday morning , I didn't really care about how she felt about my relationship with her brother , she can sulk all she liked but I wasn't going to give him up just like that . On the other hand , Shawn and I went on another date yesterday  After school . 

It wasn't an official date cause we just went to caravel to get ice cream and frozen yogurt and went for a walk at the park . I was falling for him hard , what I'm I saying , I fell for him years ago .  I told him I loved him and he didn't say it back which surprised me because I though he felt the same way .

*past*

We were sitting on a bench by a pond when I said it . He looked at me awkwardly and threw me a fake smile . I could see guilt written all over his face .

"You don't have to say it back if you don't feel the same way " I smiled sadly.

"I'm sorry "he said looking at me with concern, it hurts I'll admit it , but I didn't want him to lie to me , I'll simply wait until he does love me . I wanted to cry but I wasn't going to , I'd simply make him feel more guilty then he does right now .

"It's ok I'm not mad " but I was sad , I threw him a smile and then kissed him for reassurance.

*back to present *

I was currently on my bed with my only two friends Sara and Jessica. I was just on my phone because apparently when you invite people over , you become the third wheel . Jessica was flirting with Sara and Sara was flirting back .

I would've never guessed Sara was gay , if I knew I'm pretty sure I would've made my move already, I'm sure Shawn wouldn't have minded if I slept with a girl . It was around 3:00 pm when they left . I started to watch pretty little liars . I must have fallen asleep because I felt a hand shaking me awake . I looked up and saw my mom telling me that it was already 6:00 pm
And that I should start getting ready. I groaned , I didn't want to but I got up anyway, I was wearing jeans and a white blouse that was tucked it with a skillet black belt .  I was baking when I saw my phone vibrate .

Bae: come over.

Marla: I can't baby ,

Bae: aww why , is it because of my sister, she's leaving in like 20 min .

Marla: no I have to go to dinner with my dad .

Bae: but I'm horny :(

Marla: then look at my pictures
;)

He didn't respond after that ,but I didn't think much of it he was probably masturbating . I put my phone back down and picked up a brush and went back to my makeup . It was 6:45 pm when my brother barged into my room .

"Marla it's almost seven we need to go "

"Have you ever heard of knocking?" I said irritated. 

I put on my black high heeled boots  and my black leather jacket picked up my purse and said "let's go ".

"Where are we going anyways ?"I wondered 

"Mom didn't tell you , red lobster ".

We got in his car and he started driving . He put up the radio and started singing as he drove . I wanted  to just let him rock but my curiosity got the best of me .  So I put down the radio .

"Why Marla ? Why , I was in my zone you know ?" He said as annoyed. 

"Yea I knew , my ears were bleeding but anyways are you going to tell him ".

"Tell him about what ?" 

"Umm you and Jude " I said turning to face him . He suddenly got uneasy.

"I don't know yet but I feel like to ".

"Hmm" I put the radio back up and sat back . We got to red lobster at 7:12 pm .  

We exited the car and made our way in . As we walked in , James tapped my shoulder and pointed to a table . I look to were he was pointing and saw dad sitting there patiently. We walked up to him and sat across from him .

"You guys are late , I thought you guys weren't going to show up " he said nervously.

" what! Why ? It's not like you gave us a reason to not want to come ?" I said sarcastically.

"Guys I'm really sorry, I want my family back, I made a huge mistake, I miss you guys , I miss your mom , I wish I could take it back " he said with a desperate look on his face

"But you can't now can you, you should have thought of that before you shoved your dick in some hoes mouth " James  said agitated. "Why did you call us here dad ? Get straight to the point, I don't have all day " he added .

"James don't do that, don't say that and Marla my baby girl I haven't heard from you in a while " he said while looking at me . I stared back at him , scoffed then looked away.

He was given us an apology speech when James suddenly blurted out.

"I'm gay " 

"Wha...what?" My dad said with wide eyes starring at him . 

"I'm gay" James repeated. 

"What do you mean your gay ? Are you happy " I stared at him with a bore look .

"No dad he means he likes  men not women, he likes dick not pussy , he would rather 2 holes instead of 3 , he....."

"Ok Marla , ok! I think he got it ". James said as he covered my mouth .

"Your a fag !my sons a faggot !what is wrong with you !that is f*cking disgusting ! I knew it , I knew there was something wrong with that women !this is what she gave me as a son !you are a disgrace to this family! " he screamed as he was standing up with a disgust look on his face . At this point I knew the whole restaurant was staring at us .

"What family ! The one you destroyed!" James yelled back .  As he stood up to .

"Don't talk to me like that you disrespectful fag !  I knew I shouldn't have married your mom ! This ... this is what she gave me . A son that likes to suck dick! I hope you rot in hell for this !"

"Dad !" I yelled

"You agree with him don't you ?!"he said looking Down at me .

"Yes ! Yes I do and guess what , I wouldn't f*cking trade him for anything, I love him the way he his ! You know why ?! Cause he's my f*cking brother , you should too ! He's your freaking son for goodness sake ! " 

"You know what ? F*ck your family , f*ck you ! f*ck him and f*ck Natalie , don't you and him ever contact me ever again! I am not going to father a faggot! " he turned to James and yelled "you are a disgrace to my name ! I don't ever want to see the two of you again!" He yelled . He walked up to James and spit right in his face gen walked out .

I was stunned . I sat there with my mouth open . 

"Let's go Marla !" I heard James say lowly and started to walk out . All I did was follow after him .

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