Forgive Me , Maybe ?

chapter 18

I woke up alone on my bed with Shawn missing , It made me feeling kind of drowsy and sad .I sat up and was about  to get off to go shower  when  saw him sitting at the end off the bed ."What's wrong?"

" nothing really , are you talking to Ian"

"He was messaging me bullshit earlier so I blocked him why ?" that's when I saw him holding his phone , With a frown on his pretty face .

"He said he fucked you again is that true " he said looking up at me with a serious face .

"What no ! why would you believe that"

" I don't . I was just asking" he got up and picked up his phone and keys . I realized that he was already dress ." Welp I'm gonna go , I got a doctor's appointment with kernel , I was just waiting for you to wake up cause I know how you get when you wake up alone "

I gave him a fake smile and he kissed me before he exited the room . I didn't want him to go but I'm not gonna make him choose between me and his kid .

I got up and decided to go out and buy Chinese food for lunch . I know how unhealthy Chinese food is . I heard that their rice was made out of plastic and their lettuce was just some watery chemical but I just can't stop eating it . It taste to good .

I got dress and got in my car to the Chinese food place . When I got there I ordered fried rice with sesame chicken, as I was waiting I looked across the street and saw Shawn kissing a pregnant kernel . What ? I blink and a truck passed by when I looked again they were no longer there. Maybe it's my insecurities playing a trick on me . I walked back in the store and picked up my food and drove home .

I was sitting in art with my new friend Sara , she is very pretty plus her painting skills are to die for . She had a mixture of kinky and curly black hair with smooth milk chocolate skin , adding on to that she had a nice booty that I like to squeeze every once in a while .

Her and I were talking about race cars when the bell ringed.

"hey what class do you have now ?" I asked curiously because I didn't want to go seat alone in the library.

" I have study hall , what about you ?"

"I have lunch which I don't go to because of the whole cheerleading incident " her and I spoke about what took happened between me and the cheerleaders , she made a joke about how she'll never let me near her boyfriend.

"Do you want to hang together instead ? it's not like study hall is a serious class " she said with a light smile . She is seriously beautiful.

We decided to walk the halls and talk , our conversation wasn't about anything serious actually .

"Let's go to the first floor to the vending machine, I want fruits snacks " she said as she grabbed my hand to turn us around. We started to go down the stairs when I saw Shawn walking with kernel right beside him . I didn't think much of it . I just yelled out his name . He turned around and as soon as he saw me a smile appeared on his face .

"He walked up to me and said "hey baby " as he kissed my cheek.

" are you seriously with her ?! She hurt your sister Shawn what the hell ! Does lully know about this ?!" Kernel screamed .

" stay out of this kernel,it has nothing to do with you " Shawn retorted.

"If she's f*cking my baby daddy then yes it does . " she replied with her hand on her hip.

I hear Sara clear her throat. Oh I forgot to introduce her . I introduced her and Shawn .

"So what are you doing with kernel?" I asked with a fake smile .