Forgive Me , Maybe ?

Charpter 21

Him and I got home in silence . It was as if we were both alone in our little world. I was getting out of the car when Jude ran up to me with his mouth agaped and hugged me .

"Marla are you ok ? Babe I can't believe he did that ? I am so sorry " he said with his face filled with concern . Wait how did he know what happened, he wasn't even there, when did James call him and told him about what happened at the restaurant ? I was with him the whole time and he never once pulled out his phone , not even I pulled out my phone.

"Aw baby I'm ok " I said pulling back from the hug "besides it's not me who you should be worried about " I replied as bobbed my head to the side signaling for him to go talk to James .

"What ? What do you mean ? Did something happen?" He said looking from me to James with a confused look on his face .

"Oh I thought you knew ? James didn't tell you ? Wait ...then What were you talking about ?"

"I was talking about what Shawn just did ? I'm so sorry ? I would've never expected him to do something like that"

"What ? What did Shawn do ? " I said getting confused.

"You didn't receive it ? He must have sent it to everybody but you then "

What is he talking about? I started to pad my pants pocket looking for my phone I couldn't find it . I freaked out a little bit .but then I felt it in my jacket's pocket . Phew I thought I lost my baby for a sec .

I pulled it out, it was on silence cause I didn't want anyone to interrupt my dinner with my asshole of a sperm donor . I realized that my phone was being blown up . I clicked on one of the names and it was just a bunch of messages stating that I am a slut , a bitch ,whore , that I'm ugly , that no man will ever take me seriously and something along the lines of why did I think that I was gonna have a relationship with Shawn?

What ? Didn't those shit die months ago ? I clicked on another name and it was a guy saying when will I let him it ? What the fuck ? I clicked on another one and I was shook . Wh....why would he do this ? I trusted him ? I thought we had something, what the hell ? Tears were forming I'm my eyes . Why would he do this to me . Maybe.... maybe he released them by accident..maybe maybe.... I thought he loved me ... I mean he never said but I thought he had feelings for me ..

"Marla , are you ok , what wrong ?" I hear my brother ask . I just realized that I was still standing there . I didn't even respond , I simply walked to my car and started to drive towards his house with tears running down my face. I could hear my brother yelling after me but I didn't care .

I got to his house and as I was about to knock the door suddenly opened and lully appeared.

"Why are here you little bitch ?" She said with disgust in her voice . "You know what whatever , I'm over it , I'm sick of hating you , whore's don't change for anyone "she said in a bore tone and sagged her shoulders. She turned to go back inside then stopped "and if your looking for my brother his up in his room, if your hoe ass is coming in close the door behind you , I bet he told you that I wasn't gonna be here huh , god I f*cking hate him " she said as she walked to her kitchen.

I had a feeling this was a trap but at this moment I didn't care , I just wanted to talk to Shawn . I ran up the stairs and started walking towards his room. As I walked towards he's room I started hearing moans and groans. No that couldn't be him . I stopped in front of his door as I hear them clearer . No ! He couldn't do this to me , he wouldn't do this to me .

I put my hand on the doorknob but I couldn't twist it to open . I didn't want to know what was on the other side . I stood there for like 20 seconds but it felt like hours because of what I was hearing. I stood my ground and I opened it .

Kernel was on her knees sucking Shawn off . She was having oral sex with my boyfriend. She was having oral sex with the guy I was hoping to spend the rest of my life with . My heart stopped , every moan that was coming out of his mouth was a piece of my heart breaking little by little . I couldn't move , l felt like I was paralyzed , how could he do this to me . I ... I thought him and I had a future together .

I sniffed in and that was when I realized that I have been crying . I guess my sniffed startled him because as soon as it happened he looked up and saw me . I saw guilt written all over his face .

"Marla ! I can explain !" He said as kernel was getting up with a smirk on her face .

"Babe I'm....." he was about to say something when lully appeared.

"No I can " she said as she shoved me to the side and got in the room holding a milkshake with a smirk on her face .

"You see Marla , babe I warned you , next time you'll know to listen to me " she said standing in front of me as she lightly wipe of the tears on my cheek. "You see , the basketball team was supposed to have a game outside of the state today , so the cheerleaders and I were basically gonna have a field trip , but something happened and it was cancelled so I decided to stay home and invited my babe kernel over . We were talking enjoying our day when she said she wished she was with Shawn , and of course I agreed , I would rather him be with anyone but you .so we came up with. Plan to break you guys up , that plan consisted of her seducing my brother and me stealing his phone to message you to come over "

"Marla babe I am so sorry , I didn't mean to hurt you " he said with hurt in his voice, why is he hurt , in the one who got cheated on .

"Oh hush " lully said in a bored tone "anyways let me continue, I messaged you to come over but you said you had a thing to do with your dad , so I thought my plan was ruin but wait " she said with a sadistic smile "your dumb a$s decide to bring up pictures, pictures that I didn't even know about , so of course what I did was search for them ,babe in a way you did that part to yourself ".

"What do you mean ? What did you do with her picture !" Shawn yelled .

"Oh you mean besides sending it to everyone in your contact list ?" She replied In a confused and questioning tone which made kernel giggle .

"Really lully ? Why would you do that! What is wrong with you ?!" He hollered at her then turned to me with sorrow written all over his face "Marla babe....".

"Anyways ,what I didn't expect was for you to show up here , I mean it's understandable that you did , you did get exposed, so in a way I killed two birds with one stone since you still caught him cheating , hmmmm" she said in a grin "revenge is sweet "

"F*ck you , f*ck you lully , I hate you so much !" I said as tears rolled down my cheeks "

"Oh cry me a f*cking river "she responded in a bore tone "don't be an hypocrite, and beside you didn't actually expect you and Shawn to last did you ? " she said with a small laugh .

"Well , well maybe whore's need love too ".

"Marla , I am so sor..."

"Shawn I get it your sorry , but sorry can't take back what you did now can it?"

"Exactly Marla , exactly , it's not so fun when the shoe is on the other foot now is it ? It's not so fun when the pain is on the other end now is it boo? " lully said then took a sip of her milkshake.