Forgive Me , Maybe ?

Chapter 23

Today was Monday . I was squirming on my bed because I had to wake up and go to school today . Did I want to  ? No Do I have a choice of not going ? Yes but do I want to have a good future? Yes , so my options are limited at this point.

Wait actually becoming a stripper is still an option let's see , dance , makes hundreds a night , buy expensive close and shoes . Hmmm let's evaluate school , sit in a class room for hours , get bullied about my nudes , have to do work and homework, and on top of that , worst of all having to learn math , I shivered by just thinking about it .

Shawn and I broke up yesterday, I spent hours of my night bawling my eyes out , I really cared for him . But then I thought was my tears going to change the fact that he don't want to be with me ? was my sufferance going to change the fact that he's going back to kernel ? Was me sitting behind my bedroom door crying my eyes out going to change the fact that my heart is broken and he simply don't care ? 

So I decided  to do the next best thing . Suck it up . Yea my heart is still in little pieces, yea it was still hurting but if he don't care about me then I shouldn't about him . I was a strong confident and independent woman or teen as I like to call it , I have a lot to live for so I'm not going to spend the rest of my life mourning  for a guy who don't give a single sh:t about me . Besides the heart heals over time, I know it's gonna take a long time but I have a lot of it . I have a lot of time ahead of me to find myself a new man that will spend the rest of his life with me .

If we didn't work out it means we weren't meant to be period.  I got up and did my morning routine, I decided to go for a simple look today , messy bun , red v-neck , dark blue jeans and boots. I made my way downstairs and entered the kitchen.

My mom was with Jude in in front of the oven . Clearly Jude was doing the cooking and she was just watching , hmm at least she's learning, I really don't want food poisoning again. I walked up to her and gave her a hug from behind , she was startled and seconds later she put her hand on her chest .

"Marla ! Don't scare me like that!" I giggled then gave her a kiss on the side of her neck ."have I ever told you how much I love you ?" I said afterwards with a smile on my lips . "You are the best mother a girl could ever ask for , I wouldn't trade you for the world even if I had the choice "

She blushed then answered " oh wow , if only those feelings were mutual " I gapped my mouth with a faked taken aback look on my face .

She laughed then pulled me in " come here baby , you know I love you too " she said as she hugged me .

I hugged her back then turned to my side to look at Jude . " good morning beautiful " I said as I kissed him on the cheek while hugging him .

"Marla back off !" I hear my brother yell as he entered the kitchen.

"Aww come here babe , don't be jealous, there's enough Marla to go around " I said as I walked up to him and gave him a hug .

"Little brat " I hear him whisper which caused me to laugh . as he tried to hide his smile . But of course I'm Marla , I'm not gonna let that go .

"I love you "

"Yea , yea I love you too " he said lowly, if I wasn't close to him I probably wouldn't have even heard him . He tried to hide his smile But of course I'm Marla , I'm not gonna let that go .

"Awwww, James are you blushing " I said as I squeezed his cheekbones .

"F*ck off ! " he responded as he swaps my hands away.

We were eating breakfast together when I saw my phone bleep signaling a text . I didn't even check who it was from cause I already knew . I grabbed it then grabbed my bag to make my exit.

I was out the kitchen walking into the living room when I hear my mom yell " come pick up your dirty a$s dishes and put them in the sink ! You don't got no servants here girl!" I made a face , ignored her and ran to the door . I know she's going to be on me later about it .

I entered Jessi's car sitting in the back because Sara was sitting in the front . I kissed both of them on the cheek then sat back and put on seatbelt on. " so when are we gonna have our threesome?"

"Shut up !" Jessi replied with a short laugh .

We made our way to school with me mentally trying to cheer myself up . 'Come on Marla , you can do this , I know you can , ignore the haters and smile at your bully's face , don't let them see that they're able to get to you , do not let them overpower you '

We were in the school parking lot when I exited the car and closed the door .
'Come on girl , let's fake it till you make it '

The end .
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Authors note:
Yay I did it ! I'm proud of myself, it wasn't awesome or nicely written but I'm still proud of myself. I wrote my first book . I'm sure no one is reading it but I'm still happy . Anyways thank you if you've made it this far , I highly doubt it but still thx . So goodbye for now .

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