I can't stop thinking. I'm working hard. Like most days. I can't see my family till the afternoon. And I'm telling myself I'm a failure when I ain't. But I'm gonna speak my mind. Ok guys? I got someone I look up to. Someone I work so hard for. And well here's the thing. I can't talk to her. No matter what I do I can't open my mouth. I just stay quiet. And well I over think and that over thinking turns into chaos and that chaos turns into death. I'm tired of holding things in. That's why I vent here. So I can at least get some stress relief. Truth is we all got our problems.
I'm the type of person that just stays quiet when someone else is dealing with something. Truth is I don't care about my feelings. I care about everyone around me. And just for a second when I'm helping my best friend I forget all my problems and just focus everything on that one person. And I love the feeling. But a lot of my other friends tell me I should just let go and speak. But nothing comes out. I'm tired. I'm sore. And I'm sleepy. I'm not getting proper rest but that's how everything works. It's no ones fault but mine. And hopefully I can talk. Maybe say something anything. Because I'm falling apart. So yeah. I wanted to talk about that. About how I feel about this one person and how I can't talk to them for some reason. I guess I just don't want to put more stress in their head than they already have. But yeah. I got a lot of stuff going on in my chaotic head but I'll figure things out. I just need to talk. But yeah guys. Thanks for listening. I love you guys. Keep being strong and I'll see you guys in the next chapter. ~akaweirdgirl ❤
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Who I Was
Non-FictionThis is a story about my life and why I wanted to help people in the first place. And why I think there are no such thing as bad people but people that didn't have the good influence they needed to be great. Hope u like it.
