Yours Forever, Dragonfly.

Part 22

S

I rouse from my sleeping state to whispering, from the feel of it I can tell I'm in a car. The vehicle goes over a bump and arms hold onto me, I'm laying across three pairs of legs. From the voices speaking I can tell that my head is resting on Brandon's lap while Marc is in the middle and my feet are resting on Gabe's lap. North is driving while Axel rides in the passenger seat.

Thinking back to the past couple of days, I feel so overwhelmingly tired and make a note to myself to go on vacation if I survive all of this crap.

"What the hell are we going to do? We have an injured brother at home, someone killing innocent women, and now they are targeting S!" Marc grunts out while the hand on my waist tightens. I think all the boys need a vacation after this as well.

"Calm down Marc. We will have a family meeting once we get home and run through our options. There are solutions to everything." Axel responds in a icy tone, not much is said after that.

The car stops and the sounds of doors opening can be heard. Brandon doesn't move though just starts putting his hand through the strands of my hair.

"You don't have to pretend to be asleep anymore." I tense for a second and blush when I open my eyes to see him staring intently at me. I go to sit up and his hand slips from my hair, reaching for the door I feel a hand grab onto my arm. Looking questioningly at Brandon he just sighs and says "can we just sit here for a bit?"

Looking at his face, I notice the bags taken place under his beautiful sad blue eyes, the tightness in his jaw from him grinding his teeth. Sliding close to him so that our sides are touching, I grab onto his hand and lay my head on his shoulder.

"Tell me something." Brandon mutters, breaking the silence, and I wonder if it is to distract him from all the stress in our lives right now.

Thinking of a random topic I say "I can lick my elbow."

"What? that is impossible."

"You doubt me?" I say while raising one of my eyebrows at him

His eyes crinkle at the sides in amusement , "Of course I do. Show me then."

"Nope, you've offended me, you don't get to see now." I say grinning at him

He laughs at me and then we fall back into a comfortable silence, after another five minutes he lets out a big sigh, " We should head inside."

"Yeah, we probably should." I say while scooting towards the door.

"Hey S?"

"Yeah?" I question while turning back to look at him, feeling a bit startled when I see how close he is to me. He cups my cheek in his hand and whispers, "thank you."

That's when his soft lips land on mine, my mind completely blanking. There could be an earthquake right now and I would not even realize it. Breaking the kiss he leans back and just looks at me, the sadness in his eyes barely visible. A slight smile graces his face when he sees the redness of my cheeks.

What the hell was that?! Does he like me? Was that a friend kiss? Maybe he was just feeling vulnerable and wanted to thank me for being there for him? This is too confusing. What if the others find out? Oh gosh, Luke and I kissed too. We almost did more. Feeling like the whore Jane always accused me of being I jump out of the car before he can stop me again and run inside.

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The next day I am sitting on the couch with Raven 'my man' as he tells me to call him when I hear someone yell out, "Sang!"

Rapid breathing fills the air and I can't seem to get enough oxygen into my lungs. Tunnel vision overtakes me and I can't focus on what Raven is saying to me. I see a few of the other guys trying to get my attention but I am unable to hear them over my own frantic thoughts.

Hearing my full name being yelled out brought me back to the days of kneeling on rice, secluded lonely days, and my mommy dearest. It's like I can see her standing over me with the sick sadistic smirk on her face, she was only ever smiling at me when I was covered in my own blood.

The scars on my back tingle from just thinking of her, and I shiver in disgust from the thought of her. How can someone only be content when hurting other people, I just cannot comprehend it.

Strong hands take a hold of my face, Kevin's face swims into view and I can see his mouth taking in big breaths and letting it out. Thinking that I should do the same I copy his actions.

The ringing in my ears slowly dies down and I am finally able to see clearly. Kevin wipes the sides of my face and I realize numbly that I had been crying, "Sang, what's wrong? What happened?"

I mumble incoherently at him, feeling embarrassed at my reaction. "Firefly, I am going to need you to speak english." he says while moving next to me on the couch.

All the guys are here looking at me with the same expression on their faces: worry.

"Sang, talk to us."

I flinch again at the name and my face contorts in pain, "Please don't call me that. Call me S please." I whisper out

Kevin looks at me not understanding and I take a deep breath, "It gives me flashbacks, dragonfly. Anytime she said my name it would either be said with disgust or hatred. When I finally had the chance to leave, it was a new beginning for me. I began going just by S" tears are brimming in my eyes but I don't give her the satisfaction of anymore tears falling down.

I feel a hand on my knee and look up to see Kevin have sadness etched on his face, "I am so sorry S"

Sniffling away my tears I smile up at him and pat the hand that is still resting on my knee, "thanks for caring."

Its as if a wall covers his face, eyes harden and he snatches his hand away. Getting up as quickly as he can with his injuries he leaves the room muttering something under his breath. I thought I heard him say something about getting a drink but I can not be sure. Flabbergasted I look over at the guys but they are all looking towards the door their brother just exited. Pity is the main component I see on their faces and I don't understand it at all.

Still looking at the boys, Owen shakes his head and announces to the guys that there is a family meeting, "Get everyone together, S, did you want to take Zeek on a walk-"

Gabriel interrupts him with a screech, "What?! Mr. B, she is in danger and you want her to go frolicking outside by herself?" wow even his hands are in the air in exasperation. I would have laughed at his dramatics if I wasn't wondering the same thing Gabe was bringing up.

Owen gives Gabe a look effectively shutting him up and says, "Mr. Coleman, if you gave me the chance to finish you would know that I was going to have Axel go with her. He already knows what will be spoken in this meeting."

Looking over at the brooding man in the corner of the room I mutter out, "Uh, I think I will take the chance of getting kidnapped." Luke snickers at my comment making me realize that I need to practice my quiet voice.

Axel gives me a smirk and retorts with, "Didn't realize my presence affected you so much, Sang."

Knowing that he was here when I gave him my reason for why I do not like my full name I glare at him and growl out a "Fuck off Axel." while storming out of the room to get Zeek's leash. Maybe I need to train Zeek to bite on command. I would love to see Axel's cocky face when Zeek bites him in the ass.